I HATE HIGHSCHOOL
"I wish that I could sleep
And just get this over with
...this is only high-school bullshit... "
fuck this. I've given up on trying to please ec, it isnt possible. Its my own damn fault anyhow, ive spoiled her. Always being there, always giving up things for her. prom means nothing to me, absolutely nothing. It did once, it was all sparkly and mystifying.
I have but one goal; to escape highschool. Well, i have 2 if you count germany. I DONT CARE ABOUT CHICKS, ive had enough of them (for now P=). I just want them to wake up and stop being so fucking stupid.
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So heres the deal, ashness and ec both want me to go to prom with them. I know i couldnt go with ec, there would be too much shit i would to put up with. Like friends dissaproval, ec's own strange agenda, Mama L, etc. So, my oringinal decision was to not go at all, simple enough. Then ashness asks me, and well why not? How often would ashness ask me to do anything. I figured i was her back up, (like ec and doobie) she doesnt like me like that, but im harmless. Its just friends going to prom, fine with me. Also this way i could go in the coattails and even be able to dance with ec so that things would be fair. (<--- look at me i was still looking into ec's interests) Well, i knew i had to tell ec (I DIDNT HAVE TO), and as expected she spazzed out. Well, i know ec has been recently on a date with a friend, ok no problem there. Then wouldnt it be only fair that I could do the same? I think so. But no, thats not good enough, and she blocks be from everything. She now hates me. EC is even going to swtich days with Hans so she doesnt have to work with me.
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I think if ec truely loved me like she claimed, she would be certianly more understanding in my sitution. But no, she isnt, she has to do what she can to insult me, and what she can to get her way. This stuff is the exact reason why i hate highschool and highschool chicks. They are soo immature, I HATE IT. they're like little kids, fucking people.
(pat you can stop reading here P=)
This evening ec did something that i would consider extremely low and immature. A while ago, while ec and were still together, (i think it was her birthday) i cooked dinner for her and tried to make a really romantic evening. Well sometime during the night i played "your song" for her and sang it to her out on the deck. sounds cheesey i know. Anyway, she melted and that was our song since. Well tonight, she decided it would be cute to take the way i tried to express how i felt about her and throw it in my face. fucking bitch. She, after 2 hours of being a real bitch, was listening to her music, and it seemed that she had calmed down abit. She hands me one of the earplugs for the ipod and says sarcastically "OH! here's a song for you." Of course its "your song." Hurt i fumbled to get the damn thing out of my ear, and as far away from me as possible. "sorry" she responds in a bitchy tone, as if she had expected a different reaction. no matter how mad your are at someone, nothing warrants the abuse of someone like that. In my opinion, thats the lowest of the low, taking thier affection for you and using it agaisnt them.
I know ec will call the above a victory, that she has triumphed over me. ouch.
And just get this over with
...this is only high-school bullshit... "
fuck this. I've given up on trying to please ec, it isnt possible. Its my own damn fault anyhow, ive spoiled her. Always being there, always giving up things for her. prom means nothing to me, absolutely nothing. It did once, it was all sparkly and mystifying.
I have but one goal; to escape highschool. Well, i have 2 if you count germany. I DONT CARE ABOUT CHICKS, ive had enough of them (for now P=). I just want them to wake up and stop being so fucking stupid.
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So heres the deal, ashness and ec both want me to go to prom with them. I know i couldnt go with ec, there would be too much shit i would to put up with. Like friends dissaproval, ec's own strange agenda, Mama L, etc. So, my oringinal decision was to not go at all, simple enough. Then ashness asks me, and well why not? How often would ashness ask me to do anything. I figured i was her back up, (like ec and doobie) she doesnt like me like that, but im harmless. Its just friends going to prom, fine with me. Also this way i could go in the coattails and even be able to dance with ec so that things would be fair. (<--- look at me i was still looking into ec's interests) Well, i knew i had to tell ec (I DIDNT HAVE TO), and as expected she spazzed out. Well, i know ec has been recently on a date with a friend, ok no problem there. Then wouldnt it be only fair that I could do the same? I think so. But no, thats not good enough, and she blocks be from everything. She now hates me. EC is even going to swtich days with Hans so she doesnt have to work with me.
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I think if ec truely loved me like she claimed, she would be certianly more understanding in my sitution. But no, she isnt, she has to do what she can to insult me, and what she can to get her way. This stuff is the exact reason why i hate highschool and highschool chicks. They are soo immature, I HATE IT. they're like little kids, fucking people.
(pat you can stop reading here P=)
This evening ec did something that i would consider extremely low and immature. A while ago, while ec and were still together, (i think it was her birthday) i cooked dinner for her and tried to make a really romantic evening. Well sometime during the night i played "your song" for her and sang it to her out on the deck. sounds cheesey i know. Anyway, she melted and that was our song since. Well tonight, she decided it would be cute to take the way i tried to express how i felt about her and throw it in my face. fucking bitch. She, after 2 hours of being a real bitch, was listening to her music, and it seemed that she had calmed down abit. She hands me one of the earplugs for the ipod and says sarcastically "OH! here's a song for you." Of course its "your song." Hurt i fumbled to get the damn thing out of my ear, and as far away from me as possible. "sorry" she responds in a bitchy tone, as if she had expected a different reaction. no matter how mad your are at someone, nothing warrants the abuse of someone like that. In my opinion, thats the lowest of the low, taking thier affection for you and using it agaisnt them.
I know ec will call the above a victory, that she has triumphed over me. ouch.