Mom-mom
I walked in the house tonight to the hushed conversation between my mom and Alan.
My grandma, Mom-mom is dying.
She has been dying for the past 2 years when she refused to have a heart surgery that would of let her live for much longer.
The news came in tonight that all her internal systems are shutting down.
She probably isn't going to live though the weekend.
Granted there was no love lost between us, but she was loved dearly by Alan, and as loathe as I am to admit it, I do love him.
My younger cousins loved her dearly too, and I love them.
She is bringing my entire half of the family down in depression and she knows it.
Is it her right to be able to do this?
I said my good byes a long time ago.
I may leave to philly sometime this weekend or later I dont know.
*rubbs eyes*
I'm tired of empathy.
Now that she is dying I feel bad for wanting her to die and leave my family in peace.
I feel guilty and sad.
I will not say good bye, but good night, to a Mother, grandmother, sister, cousin, and friend.
Good night Mom-mom.
My grandma, Mom-mom is dying.
She has been dying for the past 2 years when she refused to have a heart surgery that would of let her live for much longer.
The news came in tonight that all her internal systems are shutting down.
She probably isn't going to live though the weekend.
Granted there was no love lost between us, but she was loved dearly by Alan, and as loathe as I am to admit it, I do love him.
My younger cousins loved her dearly too, and I love them.
She is bringing my entire half of the family down in depression and she knows it.
Is it her right to be able to do this?
I said my good byes a long time ago.
I may leave to philly sometime this weekend or later I dont know.
*rubbs eyes*
I'm tired of empathy.
Now that she is dying I feel bad for wanting her to die and leave my family in peace.
I feel guilty and sad.
I will not say good bye, but good night, to a Mother, grandmother, sister, cousin, and friend.
Good night Mom-mom.