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May 02, 2005 22:34

Ok for some reason I feel really really pissed and I don't know why. Rather I don't remember why. I remember feeling really apologia when I had to call ben and cancel on a gig on Saturday because I over booked. But.. that's it. Wait, no, um. . I got really angry about something that I heard on the news. Eh that's probably it. Prepare your self for a really long rant.
Ok I was finished watching the episode for 24 when the new topics came up. Now I always stay to watch the new topics because the previews for the next episode of 24 come up afterward. Well I saw something that just pissed the shit outta me.
I'm a reasonable person, I can understand business and perhaps the fact that I can understand business and the fact that can see the other 's person's point of view so easily is what makes me even more pissed off.
The ten o clock news was covering a story about a shooting ranch in Texas that was building a project to allow online shooting. Funny huh.. Well there is a website, which is directly linked to a real gun, which can be aimed at real wildlife. So basically, so pay the website to allow you to shoot real deer with a click of the mouse.
That is so F*UCKED up in so many ways. If you are going to take the F*CKING responsibly of taking the life on another creature then you should at least be there out of respect to smell the blood and understand what you have done. You need to be there to see the gore that is mutilated deer's head that you god-damn caused. The taker of this animal's life should not be able to simply blot of the consequences of his or her actions with a simple press of the button. This stupidity that allowing people to regress to that of children is PATHETIC!
People need to be able to SEE and HEAR and SMELL and FEEL the consequences of their actions. If you want shoot deer for sport go and shoot deer and clean up the mutilated corpse by your self. YOu need to see the deer suffering if you aim wrong. You need to god-damn hear the sound of a deer screaming when you FUCKING MISS!!
I am disgusted beyond words. This is morally wrong. WHAT IS THIS TEACHING CHILDREN????? OH PRESS THE BUTTON JIMMY, OH YOU MISSED, WE'LL JUST TRY AGAIN!!!
NOOOOOO!!!!!!
God What in the fucking hell is wrong with people?????????
IF YOU ARE GOING TO KILL SOMETHING, THEN TAKE RESPONSIBLITY FOR YOUR ACTIONS!!!
RESPONSIBILTY DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU PAY SOMEONE ELSE TO CLEAN UP YOUR MESS.

The worst thing is that I can see it everyday. As people are getting smarter, they are regressing to children. Children are allowed to think that if they mess up in life that they can simply restart like a video game. I don't want to live in a world where people don't understand that they are living right now, and after this second, there is no turning back.

I hate my self sometimes, I can understand so much about the world around me and my personal views of the world tell me its wrong and yet I cant block it out. I can become the web designer without a care in the world. I can become the underpaid man at the ranch cleaning up the deer that people shoot. I can even become the old decrepit man who sits at his computer shooting deer. I want to cry because I can understand everyone's point of view and I hate those parts inside of me.

Alan was watching the mini episode of the deer shooting Internet ranch. I said that I thought it was stupid and he said why? I told him that people need to take life into their own hands and he said why? I told him that if you were going to kill a creature then the least you could do was watch it suffer and pay your respects *sigh* . . and he said why.
There is a part inside of me that understands his whys, in fact, even aggress with them. Yet, the main part is crushed.

I don't know what to say anymore. I don't really think there is any way to fight this. I see this as a small turning point in humanity.

I can understand that people think that deer don't really feel anything and a lot of people don't think animals are worth worrying over, yet even those people can understand the necessity of watching something die. Feeling its cooling blood in your hands and understand that you did it. That this animal is never going to breath again. That pressing a button isn't going erase what you have done.
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