(( you're full of brilliant lies
I am so chuffed. :D Today's Chinese class was hard; I couldn't concentrate and we were doing that awful 孔乙己 (Kong Yi Ji) story again, where this guy... long story short, he's a bit of a weird guy but wanting to better himself but people beat him for a whole night and break his legs for stealing a book and his hands are muddy from crawling around and people laugh at him because, haha, he's been stealing books again, he deserves what he gets, and ultimately he dies. I've summarized it so it doesn't sound that bad, but the story itself is... horrible. Just. Horrible. It's impossible to read without feeling sick and angry. But after Chinese I read a bit of Villette, had a bit of a nap, and went to the Mental Health First Aid course and finished it aksbgkg. (Don't know if I mentioned it before, but I've been going to this course for two weeks now.) High five for me and actually finishing something that I started! So now I have a certificate which doesn't actually uh, hold any value, but hey, it's a nice thing to have. And now I know what to do if someone I know has a panic attack or a psychotic episode or... stuff. The classes themselves were very informative and I liked 'em, but some were tough, like, when they were talking about depression and PTSD and self-injury and blahblah. And one of my friends couldn't stop saying how much she wanted to leave, which pissed me off 'cause to me... idk, mental health is srs bsnsz. And someone saying that they're bored and would rather be elsewhere when people are trying to teach us about how to prevent suicide just doesn't sit well with me. I was like, "dude, just leave, then. No one's keeping you here, you didn't pay for this course," and she was like, "but I want the certificate," and sdkjgbdskh I wanted to kill herrrr.
But but but what I'm really happy about right now? ... I finished my Chinese essay. 1200 motherfuckin' words, fuck yeah. Normally it takes me an entire day just to write 600 words, but I had coffee this morning and Cola during Chinese class and coffee again during the MHFA course and for some reason this didn't make me completely jittery this time, just immensely focused. So I'm done YAAAAAAY THANK GOD. I sent it to myself because I'm pretty sure my laptop's gonna die (I had to hit the power switch like 20 times today just to get it to turn on) and, and I need to write another copy that's a crapload shorter so that I can memorize it and puke it back out (with ~*flair*~) for my oral, but hey, summarizing is heaps easier than making everything up from scratch.
I'm so freakin' proud of myself right now. :D
Umm... note to self: tomorrow! Go to Chadstone and check out desktops. Go to Arts faculty and make them help me discontinue my Philo unit. I can't take it; I'm not keeping up with the class. It's interesting, but I'm too stupid and lazy. I might enrol in some short courses, though; I wanna get a certificate for responsible serving of alcohol, so I can be a bartender. And maybe a coffee cert, so I can be a barista. And I definitely want to do basic first aid, because that's always a good thing to know. I maybe wanna do an art course, too, because I miss working in pastels and I thiiiiiink the art courses are normally on weekends. Which I can definitely do if I discontinue my Philo course.
SO MUCH STUFF I WANNA DO. So much stuff that I'm excited for. Life is incredible when you have things to look forward to. :D