after a day liek today...
i am so disgusted by people.
i am not jsut talkigna bout today,i am talking about this whole week, no this whole month. im jsut sick of everything
people have to stop cramming their opinions down other peoples throats. some of you have stopped, and i appreciate it, but some are still tehre.
i have changed deal with it. nothign ever stays teh same forever.
i am sick and tired of being the "oh mom im with crilley" stereotype. thats not me anymore. i fuckign hate that person.
people ned to stop lieing, myself included. no mattter how hard you try, you cant lie to me. you cant lie to a liar.
im pretty damn good at it, and im not dumb.
if i wanna go to parties im gonna go to parties, im never gonna ask other people to coem with me unless the have expressed interest in it.
i would never force someone to doanything they didnt want to do.
who do you think i am?
i hate liars, which means i hate myself, but im dealing with it.
i am really really sick of her, and i wish she would jsut go away. and its not who you think it is.
i dont believe in god
my birfday is coming up soon, nevember second. and i dotn know what i wanna do yet. but i know it has to be on november 4, friday, cuz i have work on saturday, and jeremy's band and daytrippers show on sunday.
i ahte chorus this year, i mean i really hate it.
i realyl dont know if i wanna do ithica. i dont want to go back, i fear ruinign the memories.
that was before everything sucked
no, it was jsut before the war
things still sucked and i was still depressed, but i got out of it at ithica.
if i go back ,can i get out of it again?
my guidence conselor is a fucking idiot.
whoops, i forgot about college.
oh well
im thinkign about oneonta, not because everyone is goign there. only because my mom says that its probably the school for me. im gonna visit soon, and maybe apply.
i know i can get in.
i can get into any SUNY school i want.
but i dont want to.
but i do want to get the fuck off long island, and leave it behind for good.
but i probably never will
im not the "oh mom im with crilley" person anymore. im begginign to ralize it now.
im so glad that im not anymore, and im sure im the only one.
i raelly wish people would not do stupid things.
you have no idea.
Oh, as of sunday,the 23, i will be taking a one month sabatical from livejournal and myspace. so if you have anything that you dont have the balls to tell to my face, say it now, or it wont be read until november 23.
i know people are gonna post shit jsut because i cant read it.
idc
i think it'll be healthy, so does the shrink.
it was my idea.
Serenity was a good movie, i wanna see it again.
my new jobs pretty easy. jsut takes forever. adn i keep on forgetting my fucking key.
my parents still think im the "oh mom im with crilley" kid.
i wonder when they will realize i changed.
Are you reading this dad?
i wanna do digiscav again.
god taht was gufftimes
why dont we say shibby anymore?
imsorry if you dont like what ive changed into. believe me,i realyl am. but this is me now.
and for those of you who havent known me very long, no for all of you, everyone i know, maybe you wil begin to see the real crilley.
the kid whose tired of standing in other peoples shadows,(despite being significantly larger then everyone, ironic isnt it?) is gone.
hes making some shadows of his own now.