...i'm oompa's lesbian swan...

[criant_ombre]

ok so, yesterday i completely missed cory, i dont know how, but yea, so i ended up calling courtney and since she is a goddess, she gave me a ride! we ended up going to matt's for a little bit. apparently hes going monday or teusday for the next 20 piercings of his corset... i realllllly hope he loves me enough to take me with him again...but, courtney felt uber sick so we left. on the way to my house, courtney recieved a lovely little text message to which i was about to throw courtney out of the car, and go beat the shit out of somebody.... but i didnt, so we just went to my house. courtney left me there and went home. my dad saw me and was just like we have to talk later. so i go change and put on a nice, covering, sweatshirt.... and proceed back. hes fucking determined to take me to a shrink..well, he refuses to say shrink, its a "counselor".. he doesnt seem to grasp the idea that i have no desire to help this family work out its problems, i just want to leave it all behind.... er, so then shower and sleep. talked to courtney a couple times last night....things got worked out about the evil text message.. so i dont have to kill anyone, which makes me happy, cause i didnt really want to kill him... this made me very very happy because i love my oompa more than life! its funny, we go through phases of when were just friends, dont talk, or talking all the time... we dont even mean to change it, it just does. these past couple days have been awesome though, ive missed her muchly. so how bout, for my honours audition monologue, its about this chick talking to her guy or whatnot.. and about how its going to hurt, and we might see eachother again, the hell of time.. blah blah blah... well, for kicks, i will be putting courtneys name in for the other name... so, im going to go be a lesbian and im going to convince the rents that im lesbian... yesh, courtney is my lover, oh baby oh baby. yea, doesnt make quite as much since as it does for me and courtney... but its all good. my mom didnt say one word to me the entire night!!! this made me happy!!! ive definitely been sleep deprived..for a couple different reasons.. so last night i made up for it and slept ALOT! i love sleep, im always happier when i wake up, i just wish i could remember more of my dreams..
so.. theres ALOT on my mind right now... and the great thing is, nearly all of it is happy thoughts.. then theres a few worries and fears tangled in.. but instead of me concentrating on what could possibly be bad... im just really happy right now.... im so fucking serious about those mardi gras beads...theyre lucky!
alright, anough of me bitching over nothing... this "swan" must go and consume life...aka, good ol' southern sweet tea... heheheh im such a redneck at heart!