This entry i posted during spring break on facebook but i moved it here
Spring break this supposed flock to paradise or a fun filled time with some of your best friends to exotic or just diseased ridden places during a week long break from the torturous dungeons we call School. As of this moment i don't know whether i would have rather stayed at school or come home. I don't know if its a huge difference up there i would have probably done nothing, and down here where time passes faster than the speed of sound i have also done nothing. So i claim i would have had the same crappy time i am having here. Don't get me wrong i love my parents and i love seeing them and hanging out with them and i would defenitely have come to seem them alone without a doubt thats not what i am bothered about i am glad i came just to see them, but there is literally nothing to do anywhere not in miami or tally or anything of that sort. I dunno i feel like a middle aged man or what a middle aged man might feel like if they were going through a mid life crisis of some sort. I virtually have no friends, its like all those friends you keep from middle school through high school are non existent, the high school ones are still there but the relationships are not the same, it gets harder everyday to even make friends, i have no one to really turn to, i dunno i am finding quite damn lonely in my life at this point and i do not see things getting better. People i though or at least seemed close to me no longer do, they seem more distant, i can't really explain but lemme see if its any better in other terms. Its as if i plant a flower and i water the seeds all the time, make sure it has enough sun light but not too much, then eventually this flower starts growing and i keep my daily routine of watering it and nurturing it and then its starts to bloom, and right when it is at its peak during blooming, i just decide i no longer want a flower and ignore it, treat it differently, sometimes I'll take care of it when i feel like it, and the flower starts to wither and not necessarily die but it is now no longer blooming and it just sits there miserably sometimes it sees better days than others. After a while the flower learns to live with what comes its way and thats it, it starts numbing itself to everything and everyone. That (hopefully) simply put is sort of one of the many situations i have right now. not to change subject really quick but you know what, what the hell ever happened to live journal, i know it kinda evolved into what we now use Facebook, and Myspace but it should be in its own category, you could write w/e the hell you wanted and it was mostly for the people who you wanted to view your thoughts and ideas, rather than have people post crap on your walls or leave comments for nothing. Honestly you didn't have to worry about top eights or any of that crap that upsets people, stupid petty little things. well thats it for that. I have much more to say but i really don't wanna keep writing and i am tired so i will end with one of my favorite quotes since i don't wanna end it with the livejournal rant. AD ASTRA PER ASPERA (A Rough Road Leads to the Stars).