happy
It has been amazing to me over the past year how much things really do change. I'm not the same girl I was November of last year. It's funny to think back. I pretty much lived within the four walls of my room. I rarely left unless it was to go to class, work, or spend time with Amick. The sad thing was I allowed my little miserable heart to affect me greatly. How selfish.
Anyways, I feel as if I've been renewed. There is still stress surrounding me constantly (especially with all this wedding planning) but I still am peaceful inside. I think I finally figured out why.
It all goes back to a simple verse Matthew 6:21 "For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."
I think the word heart in emotional terms is a very deep concept, but basically I think our heart is the deepest most sensative part of our soul. That is huge...because of that I think that it is fair to say that our heart should belong in one place and one place only.........the hands of God. Why not trust our most valuable possession (our heart) to the one thing that will never leave or fail us. It only makes sense.
But that verse pretty much gives us the answer to why so many of us live miserable lives. It clearly tells us that whatever we treasure the most is where our heart will be. That's sort of scary, ya know. If my career is what I treasure most, then that means that my heart is there as well. So what happens when that place lets me down, lets me go, or does me wrong???? My heart is directly affected. The same goes with everything. If I allow Amick, my beautiful fiance to be my most valuable treasure, then my heart is in his hands. Now, I love him, more than anything on this earth, but I still don't think its enough to trust him with my soul, ya know. Men leave, men fail....women leave, women fail.
Our heart is directly affected by what we hold the highest in our lives. Im only sad it took me 11 months to realize why I was so unhappy inside. I ultimately treasured this world. I treasured the idea of being accepted, having loyal friends, being loved and adored by Amick, being successful...and so on. Honestly in the past 11 months, every single one of those things has failed me. I have had friends completely take me out of their lives, Amick has hurt my feelings a time or two, my career hopes and dreams have been twisted and turned around. And every single time one of those things happened, my heart took a direct hit, because of Matthew 6:21. And after so many hits, I was just miserable inside.
Until about a month ago, the Lord opened his arms once again. He said "Christy, give me your heart, I'll take care of it, I don't ever leave, I don't ever think you're ugly, I'll never leave you stranded, You can trust me" I finally was able to step outside of my self absorbed, stressed and crazy self and said "OK Lord"
Now its like his hands are the ultimate protection around my lifeline, my heart. Things go wrong, people hurt me, but each time its like it passes right by, because my treasure is in the Lord, which means my heart is there also.
What an amazing sigh of relief, you know.
Anyways, I always have to pass this stuff along
I Love you all.
Anyways, I feel as if I've been renewed. There is still stress surrounding me constantly (especially with all this wedding planning) but I still am peaceful inside. I think I finally figured out why.
It all goes back to a simple verse Matthew 6:21 "For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."
I think the word heart in emotional terms is a very deep concept, but basically I think our heart is the deepest most sensative part of our soul. That is huge...because of that I think that it is fair to say that our heart should belong in one place and one place only.........the hands of God. Why not trust our most valuable possession (our heart) to the one thing that will never leave or fail us. It only makes sense.
But that verse pretty much gives us the answer to why so many of us live miserable lives. It clearly tells us that whatever we treasure the most is where our heart will be. That's sort of scary, ya know. If my career is what I treasure most, then that means that my heart is there as well. So what happens when that place lets me down, lets me go, or does me wrong???? My heart is directly affected. The same goes with everything. If I allow Amick, my beautiful fiance to be my most valuable treasure, then my heart is in his hands. Now, I love him, more than anything on this earth, but I still don't think its enough to trust him with my soul, ya know. Men leave, men fail....women leave, women fail.
Our heart is directly affected by what we hold the highest in our lives. Im only sad it took me 11 months to realize why I was so unhappy inside. I ultimately treasured this world. I treasured the idea of being accepted, having loyal friends, being loved and adored by Amick, being successful...and so on. Honestly in the past 11 months, every single one of those things has failed me. I have had friends completely take me out of their lives, Amick has hurt my feelings a time or two, my career hopes and dreams have been twisted and turned around. And every single time one of those things happened, my heart took a direct hit, because of Matthew 6:21. And after so many hits, I was just miserable inside.
Until about a month ago, the Lord opened his arms once again. He said "Christy, give me your heart, I'll take care of it, I don't ever leave, I don't ever think you're ugly, I'll never leave you stranded, You can trust me" I finally was able to step outside of my self absorbed, stressed and crazy self and said "OK Lord"
Now its like his hands are the ultimate protection around my lifeline, my heart. Things go wrong, people hurt me, but each time its like it passes right by, because my treasure is in the Lord, which means my heart is there also.
What an amazing sigh of relief, you know.
Anyways, I always have to pass this stuff along
I Love you all.