crazy in love
So my boyfriend, being the amazing musician that he is went to Miami this weekend to play in a couple concerts, mostly worship music and stuff. He left on friday morning and it is now approximately 8:07 on saturday night. I miss him so incredibly bad. I have asked myself like a hundred times "Christy, what is wrong with you, he will be back sunday" I have yet to figure it out.
The more I miss him, the more I think back to this past summer when I went to California for summer project. I left for california 4 months after amick and I had started dating. It was SO hard because I knew that going on summer project was something that God wanted me to do, but at the same time it hurt me so much to leave Amick. The 2 months I was gone were the best and worst months of my life. I had a chance to really let God work in my life and clean out a lot of junk, but I missed Amick more than I've ever missed anything in my life. The feeling I had when I got back and saw him standing there at the airport is like the most amazing thing I have ever felt. I hugged him and remember thinking I would never let go and I promised myself I would never leave him again.
I guess those feelings come when you love someone.
BUT....here I am again. I am graduating in a month. Then when june gets here I'm off to Maryland for my internship. Which means, yes, Amick and I will be separated yet again. I told Amick I wouldn't leave again, unless he was perfectly ok with it. Well he supports me and what God has for me, so of course he's ok with it. I think I told myself it would be easier this time because we have been together a lot longer and we are confident and committed in our relationship. But just this 2 days that we've been apart has really made me sad. I don't want to leave him again. I don't wanna have to cry because I miss him so much. I don't wanna only be able to look forward to talking to him on the phone.
God, help me to to keep You first, and believe that you have only the best in store for me. I guess the reality is, I would rather spend my life missing Amick, than to have never known him at all. Like I said, I guess those feelings come when you love someone.
In Conclusion: Amick, please hurry up and get back home.
I think I'm finally beginning to understand the transition I'm going through. I think back to high school when my priority was keeping up with the 10 million friends I "had", and making sure that I was the coolest. Now, a senior in college, I think to myself... I can count my "million" friends on one hand, and Im perfectly fine with that. I love it that I look forward to time with myself. I love that when I leave the apartment looking like crap, Im totally ok with that. I love it that I am obsessed with cooking. I love that when I go into department stores, I don't just go straight to the juniors section, I have to stop by and look at the linens and kitchen stuff. I love it that going to lunch with a friend is a really special time for me, and I absolutely love when I walk by the jewelry store in the mall, I imagine how amazingly wonderful my life with Amick is going to be.
God changes our desires to prepare us for different stages in our lives. That's a really simple statement, but it has taken me 4 years to understand what that means.
A chapter in my life is ending, as cliche as that sounds. But I am so excited and can't wait to see what God has in store. I'm sorry college, there is not much of you that I am going to miss.
The more I miss him, the more I think back to this past summer when I went to California for summer project. I left for california 4 months after amick and I had started dating. It was SO hard because I knew that going on summer project was something that God wanted me to do, but at the same time it hurt me so much to leave Amick. The 2 months I was gone were the best and worst months of my life. I had a chance to really let God work in my life and clean out a lot of junk, but I missed Amick more than I've ever missed anything in my life. The feeling I had when I got back and saw him standing there at the airport is like the most amazing thing I have ever felt. I hugged him and remember thinking I would never let go and I promised myself I would never leave him again.
I guess those feelings come when you love someone.
BUT....here I am again. I am graduating in a month. Then when june gets here I'm off to Maryland for my internship. Which means, yes, Amick and I will be separated yet again. I told Amick I wouldn't leave again, unless he was perfectly ok with it. Well he supports me and what God has for me, so of course he's ok with it. I think I told myself it would be easier this time because we have been together a lot longer and we are confident and committed in our relationship. But just this 2 days that we've been apart has really made me sad. I don't want to leave him again. I don't wanna have to cry because I miss him so much. I don't wanna only be able to look forward to talking to him on the phone.
God, help me to to keep You first, and believe that you have only the best in store for me. I guess the reality is, I would rather spend my life missing Amick, than to have never known him at all. Like I said, I guess those feelings come when you love someone.
In Conclusion: Amick, please hurry up and get back home.
I think I'm finally beginning to understand the transition I'm going through. I think back to high school when my priority was keeping up with the 10 million friends I "had", and making sure that I was the coolest. Now, a senior in college, I think to myself... I can count my "million" friends on one hand, and Im perfectly fine with that. I love it that I look forward to time with myself. I love that when I leave the apartment looking like crap, Im totally ok with that. I love it that I am obsessed with cooking. I love that when I go into department stores, I don't just go straight to the juniors section, I have to stop by and look at the linens and kitchen stuff. I love it that going to lunch with a friend is a really special time for me, and I absolutely love when I walk by the jewelry store in the mall, I imagine how amazingly wonderful my life with Amick is going to be.
God changes our desires to prepare us for different stages in our lives. That's a really simple statement, but it has taken me 4 years to understand what that means.
A chapter in my life is ending, as cliche as that sounds. But I am so excited and can't wait to see what God has in store. I'm sorry college, there is not much of you that I am going to miss.