If Only
If Only/I had one time/I'd take you where you wanted to go/If only i/had one wish/I'd want a million trillion life times/that i could spend with you/Falling in love with you/again and again
good song, well, sorry for not writing for a while...like anyone reads this thing. i must make one observation about the relationships that surround me. k, let's start this off by saying "Mike, where the heck are you, you aren't online, and all that junk, you should be online at 5:00am, ready to talk to me when i am online." k, now that that is done i'll continue. also note: what is said here stays here. i don't want rumurs of people dieing and babies being made spreading like wild fire.
there have been a string of happenings that i have found to be earthquakes that shake my perspective of my world. examples: ken (if you know him cool, if not, ask someone who does), my sister was talking in my family about how she doesn't like somethings he does. i won't say what. i've always seen my sister as liking ken a whole lot, and here she was almost bashing ken for how he acts. example two: becky (if you know her cool, if not, ask someone who does) i have really started to become annoyed with how she acts, like i want to get away when she is talking to me. like her constant interest in college, and everything that i am doing, sometimes i don't want to talk about what i did that day, good or bad, and asking just makes it worse. example three: ted has gone emo, i mean, he's been shot down from a relationship that has been looking like an awsome thing, and it was. and now he's left alone and can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. the worst part, i don't know what to do to help, i feel so fucking helpless, i can't think of one good thing to say. i've been friends with ted for almost the same length of time that i have been friends with peter. and as far as i am concerned we are brothers, and seeing him like this bothers me so much. example four: one of my friends who will remain nameless crushed the heart of a good friend of both me and amber, and all of my effort has been put into helping this broken hearted friend make it. this is probly the reason why i can't help ted right now. example five: i have come to a level of loving amber that i didn't even know existed. it's nuts.
so last night i was asking God. "Why is it that Amber and I, the two people who everyone thought would never date, let alone be going strong for almost 6 months later, and everyone who everyone thought would be the perfect match is breaking up and falling apart?" then i opened my bible up to a random page, cause that's what i was compelled to do (that's what i do every night)and i opened up to the story of how paul was called to be a messenger of God and how paul was at first a persecutor of believers, and now here he was preaching for him, and how paul thought he wasn't the right person. and God was like "i don't care, just go do this, I'll be with you, and i'll take care of the kinks that your past may cause" and here i am thinking "wow, amber and i are like that. we are like the odd couple and God is just like "yeah so what, i'll make it work, i'll take care of the kinks your pasts may cause"".
awsome
good song, well, sorry for not writing for a while...like anyone reads this thing. i must make one observation about the relationships that surround me. k, let's start this off by saying "Mike, where the heck are you, you aren't online, and all that junk, you should be online at 5:00am, ready to talk to me when i am online." k, now that that is done i'll continue. also note: what is said here stays here. i don't want rumurs of people dieing and babies being made spreading like wild fire.
there have been a string of happenings that i have found to be earthquakes that shake my perspective of my world. examples: ken (if you know him cool, if not, ask someone who does), my sister was talking in my family about how she doesn't like somethings he does. i won't say what. i've always seen my sister as liking ken a whole lot, and here she was almost bashing ken for how he acts. example two: becky (if you know her cool, if not, ask someone who does) i have really started to become annoyed with how she acts, like i want to get away when she is talking to me. like her constant interest in college, and everything that i am doing, sometimes i don't want to talk about what i did that day, good or bad, and asking just makes it worse. example three: ted has gone emo, i mean, he's been shot down from a relationship that has been looking like an awsome thing, and it was. and now he's left alone and can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. the worst part, i don't know what to do to help, i feel so fucking helpless, i can't think of one good thing to say. i've been friends with ted for almost the same length of time that i have been friends with peter. and as far as i am concerned we are brothers, and seeing him like this bothers me so much. example four: one of my friends who will remain nameless crushed the heart of a good friend of both me and amber, and all of my effort has been put into helping this broken hearted friend make it. this is probly the reason why i can't help ted right now. example five: i have come to a level of loving amber that i didn't even know existed. it's nuts.
so last night i was asking God. "Why is it that Amber and I, the two people who everyone thought would never date, let alone be going strong for almost 6 months later, and everyone who everyone thought would be the perfect match is breaking up and falling apart?" then i opened my bible up to a random page, cause that's what i was compelled to do (that's what i do every night)and i opened up to the story of how paul was called to be a messenger of God and how paul was at first a persecutor of believers, and now here he was preaching for him, and how paul thought he wasn't the right person. and God was like "i don't care, just go do this, I'll be with you, and i'll take care of the kinks that your past may cause" and here i am thinking "wow, amber and i are like that. we are like the odd couple and God is just like "yeah so what, i'll make it work, i'll take care of the kinks your pasts may cause"".
awsome