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Some things just aren't fair. Life has its little splits and splatters that it spits at us and we're just supposed to react normally. Well, how should we react to this? I suppose we just go on living, for ourselves and for those that couldn't. Or wouldn't. I suppose that's what they would want us to do, though they obviously didn't think of the life we have left when they decided that theirs should be cut short. I suppose you wouldn't think about something like that when you're about to do something that won’t effect you after the fact. I suppose you would just think about yourself...
There are so many choices in life that we make unknowingly. Chances we decide to take or not to take for some reason or another. They all end up chasing after us eventually. I made a choice, which now I regret beyond repair. Something so miniscule and bizarre that normally would mean nothing to me. The gift of normality does not apply here. This small, tainted regret will now plague me until the time is suited for its redemption. Perhaps it won't ruin my life. In fact, I know it won't. But it will always be there. Like a speck of dust rushing with my blood through my veins. Or perhaps it will be part of the darkness that keeps my soul unpure. In some way or another, it will be with me and I know when I think of it, of the chance I didn't take, I will bow my head in utter sadness for all the moments that could have been.
I didn’t know him. Or did I?
How can I just let you walk away...when all I can do is watch you leave?...
I wish that I could make you turn around...turn around to see me cry...There’s so much I need to say to you and so many reasons why...
Take a look at me now, cause there’s just an empty space, but to wait for you is all I can do and that’s what i’ve got to face...
I’ll still be standing here, but you coming back to me is against all odds, but it’s a chance i’ve got to take...
I don’t take the time I spend with Mark for granted. I never have. Each moment I spend with him has always been and will always be special, memorable and true, no matter how small or simple those moments seem. But now…today I just don’t think i’ll be able to let him go at all. I'm going to hold him like it's the last time I ever hold him. Because...I guess...you just never know what’s going to happen next...
Today I will cry for someone I didn't know. And forever...I will mourn something that should have been.
~Sara
There are so many choices in life that we make unknowingly. Chances we decide to take or not to take for some reason or another. They all end up chasing after us eventually. I made a choice, which now I regret beyond repair. Something so miniscule and bizarre that normally would mean nothing to me. The gift of normality does not apply here. This small, tainted regret will now plague me until the time is suited for its redemption. Perhaps it won't ruin my life. In fact, I know it won't. But it will always be there. Like a speck of dust rushing with my blood through my veins. Or perhaps it will be part of the darkness that keeps my soul unpure. In some way or another, it will be with me and I know when I think of it, of the chance I didn't take, I will bow my head in utter sadness for all the moments that could have been.
I didn’t know him. Or did I?
How can I just let you walk away...when all I can do is watch you leave?...
I wish that I could make you turn around...turn around to see me cry...There’s so much I need to say to you and so many reasons why...
Take a look at me now, cause there’s just an empty space, but to wait for you is all I can do and that’s what i’ve got to face...
I’ll still be standing here, but you coming back to me is against all odds, but it’s a chance i’ve got to take...
I don’t take the time I spend with Mark for granted. I never have. Each moment I spend with him has always been and will always be special, memorable and true, no matter how small or simple those moments seem. But now…today I just don’t think i’ll be able to let him go at all. I'm going to hold him like it's the last time I ever hold him. Because...I guess...you just never know what’s going to happen next...
Today I will cry for someone I didn't know. And forever...I will mourn something that should have been.
~Sara