Just need to get some things out
I have an intolerance to people who don't keep their promises and don't put in an effort. You can fail miserably but as long as you make an effort I will still be in your corner. Most days I feel like a huge failure. I'm constantly in pain, stressed, and feel like I'm physically unable to put in the effort I want to. Because of this it enrages me when people who have no obstacles, other than their own laziness, just don't put in the effort. I look at everything I've accomplished and overcome and I know that I've done a lot. Is it the best I can do . . . from about age 17 to 23 it really wasn't but that's true with most young adults.
I've been told I hold people up to too high of a standard but what's wrong with wanting people to have enough respect for themselves and for me to put in a goddamn effort. I think I've finally found the reason why I end up pushing people away. I can probably blame my mother for it but I don't want to this time. I just want people to stop being so fucking selfish and give a shit about anything. If you don't think you can live up to that don't tell me you can.
End of rant.
I've been told I hold people up to too high of a standard but what's wrong with wanting people to have enough respect for themselves and for me to put in a goddamn effort. I think I've finally found the reason why I end up pushing people away. I can probably blame my mother for it but I don't want to this time. I just want people to stop being so fucking selfish and give a shit about anything. If you don't think you can live up to that don't tell me you can.
End of rant.