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Not sure how to handle this but Brittany just called me and while she is still "clean" she's found out that she has Hepatitis C. I just needed to say something and if I call anyone I'm going to start crying. She's probably too far into it for the anti-viral treatment that can get rid of it if found soon enough. She has no insurance. Most of the time if treated people with Hep C are barely even affected by it. But who knows how long she's had it and how much drug use has caused her body to be unable to fight it. FUCK!!! Ok. I just need to scream or something. I almost don't want to answer my phone anymore cause she doesn't call often and when she does she's either crying and needs my support (which I don't mind at all) or she's calling to tell me she's using again or something's wrong with her. I love her and I just don't want to know anymore. I'm constantly worried about her and I can't do shit in Ypsi. I wouldn't be able to do shit in Lansing but at least I'd be there. Ok. I'm going to push this to the back of my mind and find some Jameson or something. I can't have another break down. I want to be numb again, it's easier then.