I'm SOO Fucking Pissed
So, I get home from the bar tonight and that motherfucker of a roommate (Whitney, yes he's a guy) has his fucking truck parked in the middle of the driveway so I have to park my car in the fucking lawn so I don't get a ticket. He has the pass to park on the street from Brian. I don't. If he needs to get out in the morning he can suck my fucking dick. I have no air conditioning but I have a little fan and a big fan to keep me cool enough to sleep. That asshole took my big fan to put in his room. I got home and he was up for the bathroom. He says to me "Do you mind if I use one of your fans?" WTF????? What the hell am I supposed to say? "No, you can't. I want you to suffer in the heat." No I can't say that but it's so hot I can't possibly concentrate enough to do the damn assignment I have to do tonight. I emailed my prof and asked for another extension. I'm sooo damned pissed right now. This asshole leaves his lights on. Doesn't pay rent or utilities on time and stomps around when he's here. I swear him going to bathroom is a goddamned production. It wakes me up in the middle of the night. I prolly won't be able to sleep cause of the fucking heat. I'm going to be in a shit ton of pain tomorrow cause the humidity is so high in this place that the FM is going to kick my ass. I hate my body. Yes, I got angry cause I'm fat and nothing I do seems to make a difference. But the fact that my body decides it's in pain for no apparent reason is getting so annoying I might completely go postal. There are days when I'm in so much pain I just want to check myself into an institution just for a damn break.
On top of all this bullshit I'm in pain still from Monday. I haven't posted cause I'm still pissed but I need to rant to keep myself from smothering Whitney to death with a pillow is his sleep (which btw I got for him at fucking Meijer cause the first night he was here he asked me to. Can you say submissive?) Anyway, I went to the doctor on Monday to get the IUD. It hurt so badly that I had to have them stop. I'm still fucking bleeding from the bullshit. They say they will do it again with conscious sedation and an IV pain med if my insurance will cover it. I was on the phone for over an hour trying to get the right codes from the doctor to see if my insurance will do it. Apparently, the codes they kept giving me were either wrong or the insurance won't do it. I can't pay the $100+ to get the IUD and for sedation. So, it looks like it's condoms-r-us for me until I get a full-time job and have permanent insurance. Damnit. I'm sorry that I haven't given birth. The point of the IUD is that I don't have to. Why can't men take a birth control pill and have their body chemistry fucked with???? This world is patriarchal bullshit and I'm fucking sick of it. I know I'm ranting but I don't care. Between the HelpDesk, School, medical shit, my roommates (or lack thereof), and Gregory not knowing what the hell he wants I'm about to flip the hell out.
I'm done for the night. I'm going to try and put a movie on and get my temperature low enough to sleep. LOL. I might just go sleep in my car since it'll be cooler. FTW!!!!!
On top of all this bullshit I'm in pain still from Monday. I haven't posted cause I'm still pissed but I need to rant to keep myself from smothering Whitney to death with a pillow is his sleep (which btw I got for him at fucking Meijer cause the first night he was here he asked me to. Can you say submissive?) Anyway, I went to the doctor on Monday to get the IUD. It hurt so badly that I had to have them stop. I'm still fucking bleeding from the bullshit. They say they will do it again with conscious sedation and an IV pain med if my insurance will cover it. I was on the phone for over an hour trying to get the right codes from the doctor to see if my insurance will do it. Apparently, the codes they kept giving me were either wrong or the insurance won't do it. I can't pay the $100+ to get the IUD and for sedation. So, it looks like it's condoms-r-us for me until I get a full-time job and have permanent insurance. Damnit. I'm sorry that I haven't given birth. The point of the IUD is that I don't have to. Why can't men take a birth control pill and have their body chemistry fucked with???? This world is patriarchal bullshit and I'm fucking sick of it. I know I'm ranting but I don't care. Between the HelpDesk, School, medical shit, my roommates (or lack thereof), and Gregory not knowing what the hell he wants I'm about to flip the hell out.
I'm done for the night. I'm going to try and put a movie on and get my temperature low enough to sleep. LOL. I might just go sleep in my car since it'll be cooler. FTW!!!!!