The Random Musings of an Insomniac
So as I write this it is 4:14 in the morning, a time when normal people are asleep yet I am kept awake by the throbbing knee and the inability to sleep. I sit in my bed awash in moonlight because I simply have nothing better to do.
Tomorrow Later today I have to go to graduation practice. Even though school has pretty much been over for a while we still have to make it official. Saturday is the big day, D-Day if you will. Tomorrow is the day that we officially sever our ties to highschool and all that goes with it, the drama, the monotony, the friends, the home. Granted, I won't be sad to see most of these go, but I just don't feel ready to move on to bigger and better things right now. I look at the students that graduated last year and I feel inadequate. I feel like they were older, wiser, and more mature at this point last year than I am. I'm scared that when I get to college I won't be able to handle it. I'm also scared that I have missed so much.
There are people I could have hung out with and friends I should have made, but I just never got around to it. After tomorrow, and especially after this summer, there are a lot of people I just won't see again. I know that I will find ways to stay in touch with the people I'm really close to, but it's the others that worry me. The people that have been an integral part of my days for the past thirteen years. Those are the people I am really going to miss.
And now that I have wasted another fifteen minutes I will once again attempt to sleep. Although I don't know how successful I will be now that I have so much weighing in on my mind.