End of Summer Sadness
So, I just got back home from church camp (camp Caswell). It was pretty fun, although the me being agnostic thing kinda made the Baptist worship services a bit interesting. I do have a more defined image of what I do believe though...
I am already tired of this new background and layout combination.... too bright and cheerful for my mood. It also doesn't reflect my new love affair with Breaking Dawn, which was amazing! I am so in love with that book it's not even healthy. Everything about it was perfect- just the right amount of happy-sappy-ness, just the right amount of tension, with a little shocker thrown into the middle. I am going to the beach again tomorrow to work on my senior project, but when I come back there will be some icons and a new theme hopefully soon. I already have some ideas, just have to put them down in the computer.
Today is the last day that I will see my best friend until labor day weekend. She goes to a boarding school in Durham and she leaves on Wednesday. I leave tomorrow (sunday) to go to the beach until friday. :( I miss her so much already. I don't know how I get through the school year without her by my side anymore. Somehow I made it last year, but I don't know about this year.... I see her coming back on her extended weekends and she is always a little different. The Smart-Kid school is good for her because it has brought her out of her shell and made her do things she never would have before, but it makes me sad because I feel like I am not changing. I am afraid that she will get tired of coming back to the same old Lauren every month when she is changing and becoming a very different person. It scares me that we might grow apart and not be as close anymore, I can't imagine my life without her, because she is good for me too. It scares me because we just spent a week together at camp and now we won't see each other for a month. It scares me that she has a whole new set of friends at her school and she might forget about me...