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I came home for lunch today.. I usually just sleep in my car but I got lots of sleep yesterday, which was nice. It was a pretty lazy weekend alltogether. Friday it poured so hard the streets were flodded, Amy and I ordered pizza, watched tv, and played some video games.. she went home and I Crashed early around 1. Saturday we went out and played some pool, got a call from Neesa that Brian and Heather were having a party... went over there an had a really good time.
So I'm still managing to eek by, trying to fix all the shit that being unemployed for six months fucked up. I've been slowly bringing things back together, but obviously for the credit card company that's taking all this money from me right now, it's not fast enough. And then to compound that problem, I have an unpaid speeding ticket in KC, MO. Not paying it led to my liscence being suspended, not having any money in December when my insurance was due led to me not carrying any for the past few months... well, Thursday night there was a DUI checkpoint right next to my apartment. By the time I realized what it was, I had gone too far. They didn't check my liscense, but I have 10 days to go show them proof of insurance at the time I was pulled over not to be fined... needless to say I'll have to pay a fine, and I don't know what's going to happen after that. I have to talk to a lawyer this week to figure out what I need to do to get it all taken care of. One more month would have been all I needed to get insurance, pay off the ticket, and the other debt I have left... but this defaulted card took everything this month. I can't wait till I'm finally back on the right track with everything, this is sooo frustrating.
I've been really sad since I brought up all this shit with Arin. I don't regret what I did, I just hope that she knows it wasn't for revenge or anger, and I hope she knows that I don't hate her or Adam, I just believe in honesty. What I wanted was for her to understand that she can't be truely happy unless she's honest with herself, her lovers, and her friends. I don't really understand what I'm feeling, but I do hope that she's allright and that she knows that I do still care about her, even though it may not seem like it.
So I'm still managing to eek by, trying to fix all the shit that being unemployed for six months fucked up. I've been slowly bringing things back together, but obviously for the credit card company that's taking all this money from me right now, it's not fast enough. And then to compound that problem, I have an unpaid speeding ticket in KC, MO. Not paying it led to my liscence being suspended, not having any money in December when my insurance was due led to me not carrying any for the past few months... well, Thursday night there was a DUI checkpoint right next to my apartment. By the time I realized what it was, I had gone too far. They didn't check my liscense, but I have 10 days to go show them proof of insurance at the time I was pulled over not to be fined... needless to say I'll have to pay a fine, and I don't know what's going to happen after that. I have to talk to a lawyer this week to figure out what I need to do to get it all taken care of. One more month would have been all I needed to get insurance, pay off the ticket, and the other debt I have left... but this defaulted card took everything this month. I can't wait till I'm finally back on the right track with everything, this is sooo frustrating.
I've been really sad since I brought up all this shit with Arin. I don't regret what I did, I just hope that she knows it wasn't for revenge or anger, and I hope she knows that I don't hate her or Adam, I just believe in honesty. What I wanted was for her to understand that she can't be truely happy unless she's honest with herself, her lovers, and her friends. I don't really understand what I'm feeling, but I do hope that she's allright and that she knows that I do still care about her, even though it may not seem like it.