So this is the correlation.
If I were to guess, all I'd be able to venture would be too long. But my phone tells me it's been little over a week since I was returned to my parents.
I can't stand this. I'm not used to being ordered to be back before 20:00 or lectured on what does and does not look "respectable". And it's been a long time since I've been shouted at throughout a car journey home. Or... at all, really.
I keep thinking, I'll be out of here soon, I'll find somewhere soon. But then I'll have to come back. I can't afford to spend every summer away, and even though it's cheaper in other cities, they're strange cities and I'd be alone. Right now, I think I'd rather go crazy alone in a box of a room than suffer here. But I doubt my bank account will agree.
I find I am using the word 'hate' a lot more often.
I don't want to have to come back. I don't know what I will do. I don't know what it will do to me.
I can't stand this. I'm not used to being ordered to be back before 20:00 or lectured on what does and does not look "respectable". And it's been a long time since I've been shouted at throughout a car journey home. Or... at all, really.
I keep thinking, I'll be out of here soon, I'll find somewhere soon. But then I'll have to come back. I can't afford to spend every summer away, and even though it's cheaper in other cities, they're strange cities and I'd be alone. Right now, I think I'd rather go crazy alone in a box of a room than suffer here. But I doubt my bank account will agree.
I find I am using the word 'hate' a lot more often.
I don't want to have to come back. I don't know what I will do. I don't know what it will do to me.