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It's not that I didn't have the time to update. It's just that I want to keep the things that have recently happened a secret. Well, it's relatively secret anyway. Several people know about it; a few know certain details; and only one person knows 95% of it. Haha! And I still won't tell because I am selfish that way. And if I am not selfish, then I wouldn't be myself, would I?
Still, I can share a few updates to those who care to listen (in this case, read). Hmm... Come to think of it, without the exciting stuff (the one I'm not sharing), there doesn't seem to be anything interesting happening anymore... Oh well...
Anyway, last Wednesday, my professor in Legal Theory showed a bunch of video clips -- interviews, documentaries, etc. -- about atheistic and other things that tend to shoot down any religious believe. And wasn't it a surprise that most, if not all, of it was against Christianity?
Should I be worried about my faith if I found myself not at all offended by what I saw? I'm sure several in class reacted and I can't blame them. The clips wantonly disregarded the deeply rooted beliefs of Christians. Then again, the authors of such clips also deeply believed that their conclusions of a no-God world is true. I do not blame anyone in this matter, nor can I say who is right and who's not. Still, if watching the video clips didn't do anything to offend me or convert me into anything, what does that say about me?
Back in elementary, we had First Friday masses and to me, these were a welcome break because it gives us more than an hour's worth of not studying and meeting our professors.
In high school, First Friday masses were done in such a way as to not get in the way of our classes, which was a bummer. Still, it was gone us off homeroom time. And in which cases, during high school, I sort of internally declared myself as an agnostic.
In college, First Friday masses were optional and I couldn't care less. I never attended one. Even the masses for special occasions were the cafeteria was closed in order to compel students to go to the Church of the Gesu, I never attended one as well.
To cap it all off, the intervals between the Sunday masses I attended to were usually between months to years. It was only during my senior year in high school when I decided on attending the Simbang Gabi religiously and up until now. And it was only in June 2007 when I started attending Sunday masses regularly and for no reason at all. Furthermore, I don't do confessions unless they were required by the subject or the by the school. I don't really get the idea of spilling my guts out to a human being who supposedly has the power to heal the sinner from his/her sins. If I sin, and I do, I share it with my God alone.
So what does all this say about me? I don't know. It depends on whose or what perspective. If I'm a devout Catholic, my reaction to the video might be wrong; that perhaps I should be offended, etc. If I'm an atheist, this might be a sign that I should convert to atheism or something. I really have no idea. All I can say is that I believe in the God of my religion. I may not accept nor wholly believe all the aspects of my religion, but I do believe in my God. This, I am sure of.