umm sorry i dissapeared...
if i would have waited 9 more days it would have been a month since i last updated... lame.
its time for a change.
tomorrow i get my results from the doctor and while im sure nothing is wrong, i feel like something is definitely not right.
i miss being able to be myself.
ive been flighty.
but i will apologize for nothing becuase even though i may not have been around i have good reason and your bullshit excuses for why you're mad at me aren't fair.
i am in a fight with someone who is supposed to be my friend. she's mad becuase i didn't pick up my phone two days in a row. what she apparently doesn't see is that in those days i went to the doctors [was obviously sick], had class, and worked both my jobs... for a total of 3 shifts in two days. WHEN I COME HOME, IM FUCKING TIRED. sorry.
speaking of the telephone... im low on minutes but EVAN and DOHAR i have dually noted that you called me and i promise i will call you back. i miss you guys.
halloween... which was supposed to be a blast...blew. i ended up having to work on halloween night and missed out on alot of fun things. oh well. maybe next year.
ive been getting alot of calls [etc] from boys from my past, and its strange. most of these people want to be friends again... maybe more... but i dont think im ready to be trampled again... not yet at least... ?
i need to lose a buch of lb's by the time christmas comes around... i want to feel good again. and i DONT want to be that girl that comes back from collee and everyone form home says "man, she gained weight!"
...becuase i know i used to do that to people!
haha.
fucking karma.
its time for a change.
tomorrow i get my results from the doctor and while im sure nothing is wrong, i feel like something is definitely not right.
i miss being able to be myself.
ive been flighty.
but i will apologize for nothing becuase even though i may not have been around i have good reason and your bullshit excuses for why you're mad at me aren't fair.
i am in a fight with someone who is supposed to be my friend. she's mad becuase i didn't pick up my phone two days in a row. what she apparently doesn't see is that in those days i went to the doctors [was obviously sick], had class, and worked both my jobs... for a total of 3 shifts in two days. WHEN I COME HOME, IM FUCKING TIRED. sorry.
speaking of the telephone... im low on minutes but EVAN and DOHAR i have dually noted that you called me and i promise i will call you back. i miss you guys.
halloween... which was supposed to be a blast...blew. i ended up having to work on halloween night and missed out on alot of fun things. oh well. maybe next year.
ive been getting alot of calls [etc] from boys from my past, and its strange. most of these people want to be friends again... maybe more... but i dont think im ready to be trampled again... not yet at least... ?
i need to lose a buch of lb's by the time christmas comes around... i want to feel good again. and i DONT want to be that girl that comes back from collee and everyone form home says "man, she gained weight!"
...becuase i know i used to do that to people!
haha.
fucking karma.