stumbling into the new year
a feeling of ambivalence swept over me as we crossed over to the new year. for the past 2 months, i've been living each day with only what cakes i need to bake in mind. weekdays didn't differ from weekends, and each calendar day is just a numerical reminder of my baking timelines. it felt like i fell into a baking blackhole with no way out. and the thought of baking incessantly made me so sick, i wanted to throw up. this is what tension headaches are made of.
now that we're entering the new year with some quiet time, i thought i'd take the time to reflect how and what 2010 was for me. other than being a grumpy baking monster, 2010 was a generally a pretty good year. a tad challenging, but definitely worthy of two thumbs up.
running a business gave me much gratification, especially when i see customers smile when they walk out of the shop. it always makes me forget the down side of things. although i can definitely live with a bit more money and time for myself.
the year was also peppered with my (usual) share of strange people. the most memorable being a certain surgically modified person whom i shall not name. she was so memorable i dedicated one post to her in my earlier entries. sometimes i think life greets us in funny ways. but that's when you know the good friends that you're meant to keep for life are already by your side.
men. a two-fold improvement from 2009 when not in single date was in order. desperation can sometimes be a motivating force. unfortunately for me, the motivation sizzled out after 2 dates. so, there was G. the big dude who was somewhat charismatic but just couldn't get sex out of his head. a part of me felt like we could have worked out if we both gave each other more chance. oh well. then there was the whispering mumbler, whose name i don't remember. this one drained all the energy out of me on the first (and only) date. it was quite funny how the night ended. i don't remember much about it, except feeling terribly bored and wondering what Bit had for dinner.
looking ahead to the next 12 months, i would like for us to have a second store by middle of the year. i know a lot more heartaches and frustrations will be waiting for me down the road, but it'll be something i have to go through.
i would also like to live this year with more humility and patience. to give a little more to people in need, to be more patient with people who are daft. i'm also working on my tolerance level towards my mother, who is a constant source of my anger and frustration. well, one can always make plans to be better people at the beginning of the year.
am also hoping to resume travel plans. with 2 trips lined up in the first quarter of this year, guess i can't really complain. time apart from the shop and family will reconnect some of those sanity cables in my head. who knows if these tiny packs of travel adventures will bring new ideas and inspiration for the business too.
some quiet hopes, a few simple wishes in a whirlpool of emotions for this new year.
now that we're entering the new year with some quiet time, i thought i'd take the time to reflect how and what 2010 was for me. other than being a grumpy baking monster, 2010 was a generally a pretty good year. a tad challenging, but definitely worthy of two thumbs up.
running a business gave me much gratification, especially when i see customers smile when they walk out of the shop. it always makes me forget the down side of things. although i can definitely live with a bit more money and time for myself.
the year was also peppered with my (usual) share of strange people. the most memorable being a certain surgically modified person whom i shall not name. she was so memorable i dedicated one post to her in my earlier entries. sometimes i think life greets us in funny ways. but that's when you know the good friends that you're meant to keep for life are already by your side.
men. a two-fold improvement from 2009 when not in single date was in order. desperation can sometimes be a motivating force. unfortunately for me, the motivation sizzled out after 2 dates. so, there was G. the big dude who was somewhat charismatic but just couldn't get sex out of his head. a part of me felt like we could have worked out if we both gave each other more chance. oh well. then there was the whispering mumbler, whose name i don't remember. this one drained all the energy out of me on the first (and only) date. it was quite funny how the night ended. i don't remember much about it, except feeling terribly bored and wondering what Bit had for dinner.
looking ahead to the next 12 months, i would like for us to have a second store by middle of the year. i know a lot more heartaches and frustrations will be waiting for me down the road, but it'll be something i have to go through.
i would also like to live this year with more humility and patience. to give a little more to people in need, to be more patient with people who are daft. i'm also working on my tolerance level towards my mother, who is a constant source of my anger and frustration. well, one can always make plans to be better people at the beginning of the year.
am also hoping to resume travel plans. with 2 trips lined up in the first quarter of this year, guess i can't really complain. time apart from the shop and family will reconnect some of those sanity cables in my head. who knows if these tiny packs of travel adventures will bring new ideas and inspiration for the business too.
some quiet hopes, a few simple wishes in a whirlpool of emotions for this new year.