[fanmix] Ethereal (A Severus Snape/Ghost of Lily Potter Fanmix)
More of my fanmixing madness! Severus Snape/Lily Evans is one of my secret OTPs. Ghost!Lily wouldn't leave me alone, either.
Carry On Till Tomorrow - Badfinger
In younger days, I told myself my life would be my own
And I’d leave the place where sunshine never shone
For my life’s too short for waiting when I see the rising sun
Then I know again I must carry on.
“I promised myself it would be better,” Snape whispers to the headstone, fingers clenching in his robe. “I promised myself I would be better.” His head hung down, hair cloaking his face from the world. “Now, it never will be.”
Hate Me - Blue October
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
[…]
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
“I’m so sorry, Lily,” Snape pleads, propped against the rough stone wall. “I don’t know why…I…please, Lily, I’m so sorry!”
Rising from the memory, Snape swallows the sick lump in his throat. In the end, hating him was probably the best decision she ever made. That doesn’t keep it from hurting.
Out of My League - Stephen Speaks
It's her hair and her eyes today
That just simply take me away
And the feeling that I'm falling further in love
Makes me shiver but in a good way
“Lily?” Snape whispers, disbelieving. His mouth is dry. She is as beautiful as ever, whatever she is. “Is that…are you…?”
“Not a ghost, not really,” she answers, smiling at him. “More like…a sending.” She wiggles ghostly, silver fingers at him.
Ghost - Indigo Girls
There's not enough room in this world for my pain
Signals crossed and love gets lost and time passed makes it plain
Of all my demon spirits I need you the most
I'm in love with your ghost
I'm in love with your ghost
Even though she’s ethereal, incorporeal, Snape is hopelessly in love with Lily Evans-Potter. He always has been; he always will be. She has him hopelessly entangled in her enchantments, and that’s the way he likes it. Even when she’s dead, and he’s soon to be.
Heaven (Little by Little) - Theory of a Deadman
There's a little piece of heaven
Right here where you are
The fact that you keep trying
Is what sets you apart.
Help me find the reason
And I'll help you find the way
To get rid of all your pain
Little by little, day by day
Snape sighed, settling closer to the one person who had been his friend for all these years. “You never did let me apologise to you. Or beg your forgiveness.”
Lily smiled gently, wishing she could reach out and touch him like this. “Severus…it’s not my forgiveness you need.” She stroked his jaw, watched him shiver at her cold, ethereal touch. “You must learn to forgive yourself.”
I Run For Life - Melissa Etheridge
It's a blur since they told me about it
How the darkness had taken its toll
And they cut into my skin and they cut into my body
But they will never get a piece of my soul
And now I'm still learning the lesson
To awake when I hear the call
And if you ask me why I am still running
I'll tell you I run for us all
For hours, Snape talks. He tells Lily everything that has happened in the four years since her death. He tells her of lies, of missions, of pain and near-death. He tells her how much he hates it, and how he cannot stop.
“Never?” she asks, sounding sad.
“Never.”
Gunslinger (Running Out of Time) - Over It
Demons are at your door.
Phantoms edging ever close.
Evil is starved for innocence.
So far from typical, to need a friend (to need a friend).
You’d better hold on to that younger heart.
Even as the darkness presses closer around him, crushing him down, Snape holds on to the memories of Lily Evans when they were young. It’s easier, now; she’s standing next to him, silver and cold but there.
Wake Up Dead - Veruca Salt
But I will accept you
‘Til the sun falls down
And I will protect you
‘Til the sun falls down
And I will respect you
‘Til the sun falls down
Lily hovers, watching Snape sleep. She loves James Potter; that will never change. But she loved Snape first, and maybe, deep in her heart, she thinks she still does love him. She regrets turning her back on him, regrets not asking what made him change. She regrets not being able to touch him; she’d give anything to be able to stroke that one lanky curl away from his creased forehead, like when they were younger.
The Hero Dies In This One - The Ataris
Sometimes this all feels like a dream.
I'm waiting for someone to just wake me up,
From this life.
“What happens when you leave?” Snape asks one day, apropos nothing.
Lily blinks. “When I leave…?”
“What happens to me? Am I alone again? I love you, Lily! I always did!” he whispers forcefully. Tears start to form in his dark eyes.
“Oh, Severus,” Lily replies. She can feel her heart breaking. “You’ll go on, just like you always have to.” She turns away so she doesn’t have to see him cry.
Swans - Unkle Bob
By my side
You’ll never be
By my side
You’ll never be
Snape knows where Lily’s loyalties lie, and he knows that, if forced into a decision, she will choose James over him. But for now, she is with him, and he is content to pretend that things are going to way he wants them to. For now, they are together.
December Boys - Peter Cincotti
But nothing was easy,
but I would do it all again, and never change a thing,
It's all about choices,
but I couldn't watch you walk away,
without following.
“I shouldn’t have said that,” Snape whispers, staring into the fire. “I shouldn’t have let you walk away. I should have chased you down.”
Lily watches him. “I shouldn’t have let you get rid of me,” she replies. “I shouldn’t have listened. I should have known better.” She’s silent for a moment. “We all have regrets, Sev.”
Holly Wood Died - Yellowcard
Hey let go of all you know
You're flying away now
What have you got to lose
And say out loud these words I've found
I'll be there when you come down
I'll be waiting for you
“I’ll be waiting, Severus,” Lily whispers, watching the snake curl around his throat. She closes her eyes, not wanting to see white fangs rip that sallow throat, but she cannot block his dying gurgle. It sounds terribly like her name…like a prayer.
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Carry On Till Tomorrow - Badfinger
In younger days, I told myself my life would be my own
And I’d leave the place where sunshine never shone
For my life’s too short for waiting when I see the rising sun
Then I know again I must carry on.
“I promised myself it would be better,” Snape whispers to the headstone, fingers clenching in his robe. “I promised myself I would be better.” His head hung down, hair cloaking his face from the world. “Now, it never will be.”
Hate Me - Blue October
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
[…]
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you
“I’m so sorry, Lily,” Snape pleads, propped against the rough stone wall. “I don’t know why…I…please, Lily, I’m so sorry!”
Rising from the memory, Snape swallows the sick lump in his throat. In the end, hating him was probably the best decision she ever made. That doesn’t keep it from hurting.
Out of My League - Stephen Speaks
It's her hair and her eyes today
That just simply take me away
And the feeling that I'm falling further in love
Makes me shiver but in a good way
“Lily?” Snape whispers, disbelieving. His mouth is dry. She is as beautiful as ever, whatever she is. “Is that…are you…?”
“Not a ghost, not really,” she answers, smiling at him. “More like…a sending.” She wiggles ghostly, silver fingers at him.
Ghost - Indigo Girls
There's not enough room in this world for my pain
Signals crossed and love gets lost and time passed makes it plain
Of all my demon spirits I need you the most
I'm in love with your ghost
I'm in love with your ghost
Even though she’s ethereal, incorporeal, Snape is hopelessly in love with Lily Evans-Potter. He always has been; he always will be. She has him hopelessly entangled in her enchantments, and that’s the way he likes it. Even when she’s dead, and he’s soon to be.
Heaven (Little by Little) - Theory of a Deadman
There's a little piece of heaven
Right here where you are
The fact that you keep trying
Is what sets you apart.
Help me find the reason
And I'll help you find the way
To get rid of all your pain
Little by little, day by day
Snape sighed, settling closer to the one person who had been his friend for all these years. “You never did let me apologise to you. Or beg your forgiveness.”
Lily smiled gently, wishing she could reach out and touch him like this. “Severus…it’s not my forgiveness you need.” She stroked his jaw, watched him shiver at her cold, ethereal touch. “You must learn to forgive yourself.”
I Run For Life - Melissa Etheridge
It's a blur since they told me about it
How the darkness had taken its toll
And they cut into my skin and they cut into my body
But they will never get a piece of my soul
And now I'm still learning the lesson
To awake when I hear the call
And if you ask me why I am still running
I'll tell you I run for us all
For hours, Snape talks. He tells Lily everything that has happened in the four years since her death. He tells her of lies, of missions, of pain and near-death. He tells her how much he hates it, and how he cannot stop.
“Never?” she asks, sounding sad.
“Never.”
Gunslinger (Running Out of Time) - Over It
Demons are at your door.
Phantoms edging ever close.
Evil is starved for innocence.
So far from typical, to need a friend (to need a friend).
You’d better hold on to that younger heart.
Even as the darkness presses closer around him, crushing him down, Snape holds on to the memories of Lily Evans when they were young. It’s easier, now; she’s standing next to him, silver and cold but there.
Wake Up Dead - Veruca Salt
But I will accept you
‘Til the sun falls down
And I will protect you
‘Til the sun falls down
And I will respect you
‘Til the sun falls down
Lily hovers, watching Snape sleep. She loves James Potter; that will never change. But she loved Snape first, and maybe, deep in her heart, she thinks she still does love him. She regrets turning her back on him, regrets not asking what made him change. She regrets not being able to touch him; she’d give anything to be able to stroke that one lanky curl away from his creased forehead, like when they were younger.
The Hero Dies In This One - The Ataris
Sometimes this all feels like a dream.
I'm waiting for someone to just wake me up,
From this life.
“What happens when you leave?” Snape asks one day, apropos nothing.
Lily blinks. “When I leave…?”
“What happens to me? Am I alone again? I love you, Lily! I always did!” he whispers forcefully. Tears start to form in his dark eyes.
“Oh, Severus,” Lily replies. She can feel her heart breaking. “You’ll go on, just like you always have to.” She turns away so she doesn’t have to see him cry.
Swans - Unkle Bob
By my side
You’ll never be
By my side
You’ll never be
Snape knows where Lily’s loyalties lie, and he knows that, if forced into a decision, she will choose James over him. But for now, she is with him, and he is content to pretend that things are going to way he wants them to. For now, they are together.
December Boys - Peter Cincotti
But nothing was easy,
but I would do it all again, and never change a thing,
It's all about choices,
but I couldn't watch you walk away,
without following.
“I shouldn’t have said that,” Snape whispers, staring into the fire. “I shouldn’t have let you walk away. I should have chased you down.”
Lily watches him. “I shouldn’t have let you get rid of me,” she replies. “I shouldn’t have listened. I should have known better.” She’s silent for a moment. “We all have regrets, Sev.”
Holly Wood Died - Yellowcard
Hey let go of all you know
You're flying away now
What have you got to lose
And say out loud these words I've found
I'll be there when you come down
I'll be waiting for you
“I’ll be waiting, Severus,” Lily whispers, watching the snake curl around his throat. She closes her eyes, not wanting to see white fangs rip that sallow throat, but she cannot block his dying gurgle. It sounds terribly like her name…like a prayer.
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