Aaaagggg
Do you ever feel like you are utterly powerless? God I fucking hate when I can't change the stupid little thoughts that run through my mind...stupid thoughts that make no sense and are so fucking irrational ....sometimes I just want to insert a flesh eating worm into my ear and let it go rampant...eat my brains for all I care just make me stop thinking stupid shit...stupid anna..*smacks herself*... Has something completely irrational and stupid ever gotten under your skin... and everyone's attempts at rationalizing it and helping just don't seem to work even though what they're saying make complete sense...agg my logic is fucking shot...what the fuck has happened to me? It seems as if I'm changing into a whole new person without my consent and all I can do is sit there and watch....I don't know maybe this is just a mood swing and five minutes from now I'll get back on Live Journal and laugh about this...but what if I don't? what if I'm stuck feeling this way?I just don't understand this at all and I can't fucking stand that...the weird thing is that I'm not upset and I'm not distraught ..I'm ..just...different....and mark my words no one by any means has caused this...I don't know what has.... I don't even know where to begin on changing this...advice?