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[creep1355]

im hopelessly in love with you
ive always been
its a blessing and a curse
its gotten me to do things i thought i never would
its taken me so high ive hit my head at the top
and taken me to the bottom
its made me smile
and laugh
ive been so happy
and at times wanted to kill myself
funny how one thing can make you feel all these things
how you could want it so much
yet wish you couldnt feel
i want so much for myself,to better myself for you
i want to give it all up and not care
i hate this confuseion
yet my head is as clear as its ever been
i want to forget it all
drown myself in sorrow and beer
but i cant,i wont forget
the pain will always be there
every second that im away from you the pain is there
guess i just have to live with it
or not