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Have you ever just wanted to lie on the ground, hands straight out on each side, legs fully straight out, laying perfectly still to the point where you feel paralyzed and eyes just looking up? I felt like doing that tonight, but I was too scared. I was thinking, what would people think if they saw me lying on the ground infront of my house? Probably not "maybe she's looking at the stars". So instead I settled for standing outside perfectly still and looked straight up; I haven't done that in the longest time, mostly because when I was younger I was affraid to look up and get carried away by someone into the sky. When I looked up tonight I saw a cloud, and for a change it was not just a cloud, it was a heart, and it was magnificent. it's hard to find bright stars in my neighorhood, but I found 2, right above me.
I realized that I like being alone; I love thinking and keeping myself company. I love quiet places, the computer being soulmate and the nightsky my lover when no one is watching. Most people think I'm always sad or depressed, when really I'm just in my own world of thoughts that never seem to give me a break. Although I love big crowds of friends, I enjoy a small gathering most of the time. I'm more intellectual and fascinating to talk to then most people give me credit for. But it's ok. For some reason I am very content with myself tonight.
I realized that I like being alone; I love thinking and keeping myself company. I love quiet places, the computer being soulmate and the nightsky my lover when no one is watching. Most people think I'm always sad or depressed, when really I'm just in my own world of thoughts that never seem to give me a break. Although I love big crowds of friends, I enjoy a small gathering most of the time. I'm more intellectual and fascinating to talk to then most people give me credit for. But it's ok. For some reason I am very content with myself tonight.