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I mentioned finishing up therapy yesterday. One of the more recent changes I observed in that last session is my social life.
I'm typically one to keep to myself, to not bother responding to people. Sort of a social phobia. Afraid of doing something socially wrong, so preferring instead to do nothing socially. Sometimes I say I don't have friends, but I think it would be better to say I don't know I have friends.
But lately it's started to be different. And I've started to realize I do have friends, they are just waiting to hear back from me. I may not have a very big social circle at the moment, but building one has to start somewhere. I even searched out a friend from high school who seems to be at UCSD now and sent him an email. (I'm only 99% sure it's him though. The name is right, the graduation year is right, and he graduated from UC Davis, which I vaguely recall a friend being accepted to...) For once I am interested in getting in touch with people I know, and am not afraid to return calls.
I'm typically one to keep to myself, to not bother responding to people. Sort of a social phobia. Afraid of doing something socially wrong, so preferring instead to do nothing socially. Sometimes I say I don't have friends, but I think it would be better to say I don't know I have friends.
But lately it's started to be different. And I've started to realize I do have friends, they are just waiting to hear back from me. I may not have a very big social circle at the moment, but building one has to start somewhere. I even searched out a friend from high school who seems to be at UCSD now and sent him an email. (I'm only 99% sure it's him though. The name is right, the graduation year is right, and he graduated from UC Davis, which I vaguely recall a friend being accepted to...) For once I am interested in getting in touch with people I know, and am not afraid to return calls.