I am really glad to have met and gotten to work with you. You need to give yourself more credit, I think you did a wonderful job. I really didn't think it was your time to go at all. I voted for you and not just because I am your friend, but because I felt you deserved my vote. I loved your entry. I can't explain what it was exactly, but I even told James about it (which I don't do often, he gets bored listening me go on and on about Idol).
I don't really belong anywhere either. I never seem to fit in with anything I do. But I understand why now and finally learning to accept that it isn't because people don't like me, I am just different. (I have Aspergers Autism which messes with my ability to socialize with others properly. It is harder to notice online, but it makes tons of sense if you knew me in RL). So I am fairly used to it...doesn't mean it doesn't hurt still.
Lately, I have felt more involved thanks to several great Idol friends that have cheered me on since I mentioned feeling left out though :) And the people I have met (you included) make it all worthwhile to have stuck it out and keep trucking!
Thank you, getting out of my comfort zone is not easy for me. This really did that for me and I do feel more like I can write good. Am I like some of the others? No way, but I know I can put out good stuff. That has done a lot for my self asteme.
I never would have guessed what your other disabilities were but I from the start sensed something else. I can't explain it at all. I am sure some of it comes from knowing that I do have other disabilities. As a result I am really in touch with what goes on with other people. I have been like this for a long time.
Yeah, that sounds like some really weird shit just hearing what I just wrote. Grin! So don't worry if you feel like I am a bit nuts. Having people think I am weird is alright with me.
It makes me feel very honored that you wanted to talk about my entry with James.
Wow, it is really late or early depending on how one looks at it. Grin! Guess I should go to bed.
Yes, Idol has made me get out of my comfort zone too and I actually really enjoy that. And the fact that when I came in, I thought I would be the worst writer in her and gone within the first few weeks, well I feel really good to have made it this far!
I don't think it sounds nuts at all. I sometimes think it has to be obvious. I am like a blaring case of it. Though I feel lucky and don't think of it as a disability. the only thing it hinders me with is socialization. I think if it wasn't for my "disability", I wouldn't have come as far as I have today. I am the only one in my family who has completed high school, much less college. Aspies tend to excel in school and prove to very motivated to succeed in everything we do because we are extra hard on ourselves to do well. Oh and the fact that my memory is pretty darn amazing, it makes school simple as can be. Otherwise, I am not very smart at all...I just remember EVERYTHING. I kick butt at trivia needless to say :) I think without it, I might not have coe as far because like I said, I am really not that smart. I have trouble with logic sometimes and my mind feels all jumbled at simple office tasks and whatnot.
I don't really belong anywhere either. I never seem to fit in with anything I do. But I understand why now and finally learning to accept that it isn't because people don't like me, I am just different. (I have Aspergers Autism which messes with my ability to socialize with others properly. It is harder to notice online, but it makes tons of sense if you knew me in RL). So I am fairly used to it...doesn't mean it doesn't hurt still.
Lately, I have felt more involved thanks to several great Idol friends that have cheered me on since I mentioned feeling left out though :) And the people I have met (you included) make it all worthwhile to have stuck it out and keep trucking!
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I never would have guessed what your other disabilities were but I from the start sensed something else. I can't explain it at all. I am sure some of it comes from knowing that I do have other disabilities. As a result I am really in touch with what goes on with other people. I have been like this for a long time.
Yeah, that sounds like some really weird shit just hearing what I just wrote. Grin! So don't worry if you feel like I am a bit nuts. Having people think I am weird is alright with me.
It makes me feel very honored that you wanted to talk about my entry with James.
Wow, it is really late or early depending on how one looks at it. Grin! Guess I should go to bed.
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I don't think it sounds nuts at all. I sometimes think it has to be obvious. I am like a blaring case of it. Though I feel lucky and don't think of it as a disability. the only thing it hinders me with is socialization. I think if it wasn't for my "disability", I wouldn't have come as far as I have today. I am the only one in my family who has completed high school, much less college. Aspies tend to excel in school and prove to very motivated to succeed in everything we do because we are extra hard on ourselves to do well. Oh and the fact that my memory is pretty darn amazing, it makes school simple as can be. Otherwise, I am not very smart at all...I just remember EVERYTHING. I kick butt at trivia needless to say :) I think without it, I might not have coe as far because like I said, I am really not that smart. I have trouble with logic sometimes and my mind feels all jumbled at simple office tasks and whatnot.
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