[[MUSE AND MUN ARE BOTH REALLY SORRY FOR THE ANGST. ;; That other Flynn's in a different universe and you're not like that and it's not your fault, honest! And... and the Alan in that ficspace knows that too. He just. Really misses getting to do that shaking-till-your-teeth-rattle thing and is being unfair right now.~;;]]
ooc: NO WORRIES! With Flynn? It's never a certainty when and why he'll careen into despair and self-accusations. It's not the first time and probably not the last, either. They were GOOD FICS!
Oh, I am. And mostly I've been pretty well. It's the damage I've done that's not a good thing. *having been... relatively well and unharmed himself, again, makes him feel how everybody else is paying for his own mistakes. And yet they're by his side - really, how does he deserve all that?*
ooc: *huuuuugs back! Yes, he does need them. He's just... Mmph. *pokes him*
*not many have, probably for the better. It's a state which helps nobody, really, and he tries not to indulge in it. Just sometimes, he can't ward it off*
Indeed. Although it's more up to the case of the road paved with good intentions. *sighs, shakes his head* I'm afraid the fault was in the investments. But ... since everybody's giving me another chance... maybe I'll act wiser now. *right. Hope dies last, right?*
[mun understands that more than Ram does, but there were times back in the cells when he got pretty far down too, and having someone to talk to always helped even when it was Tron in one of his broody millicycles~.]
Isn't that the same thing? You make a plan... things happen. [paces over to sit on his heels beside the User, leaning over to catch your look] You learn from it. [of course you'll act wiser. you want to; everyone's backing you up. see this face? this program trusts you. he's not the only one.]
*aww Ram. That apparently made Tron want his own journal so he can hug Ram...*
In... theory, yeah. Except some mistakes are difficult to face-- I mean, I won't make the same ones again. *almost a smile at Ram, yes, and after a moment reaches to rub his friend's shoulder* I just... sometimes I wonder if it's not a... an inherent flaw in me. No matter how much I try, something will go wrong and others will have to take the consequences. *deep breath* Most days, I manage to point out that the fact that it has all gone wrong doesn't mean that the result will be the same in the future.
[hey there, Flynn.~ WELL YOU KNOW HOW VERY MUCH RAM WOULD NOT OBJECT TO THAT.~ /o/
leans against you, just a little; that is not what it's about, Flynn -- your friends are lucky to have you.
quietly] If there's anything I've learned since all this started, it's that not even a User can make nothing go wrong. Or do things that have no effect. [low chuckle] Actually, I knew that before, when I was managing peoples' finances. You always have to factor in the unexpected. If that was a design flaw, it'd be universal, so it's more like a standard feature, isn't it?
[bites his lip. maybe if he'd been stronger, he could have survived those tanks and been there for Tron and Flynn in the new system. if he'd gotten his memory back faster, he could have tried to help them, to mediate when Clu needed a different perspective, to help them plan; it was what he was made for and he'd been stuck up in Stats with no idea he'd ever met them... and he'd tried so hard to keep up, back when it counted. some failures... you just had to let them go and
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Mmm. *he smiles, a little bit, leaning closer, too* The unexpected was where I used to be, in a way. It was the heavily skewed negative consequences that got me. I mean... it's not random chance. It was mistakes, accumulated over time which led to this. My mistakes.
*deep breath, and then catches that look on Ram and reaches an arm around his shoulders* We all did the best that we thought we could do.
[hey, nobody goes in planning to glitch things up -- mistakes aren't random; they're mistakes. even programs are liable to error. but he's not here to debate, he's here to be here for you, so he'll save the analysis for another time.]
Hindsight's 20-20. ...........Or at least that's what the Users say. It's never easy looking back at things like that.
[waitwaitwait, why are you reassuring him again. it was supposed to be the other way around this time. have an arm around your shoulders too, old friend.] ..Yeah. We did.
[[MUSE AND MUN ARE BOTH REALLY SORRY FOR THE ANGST. ;; That other Flynn's in a different universe and you're not like that and it's not your fault, honest! And... and the Alan in that ficspace knows that too. He just. Really misses getting to do that shaking-till-your-teeth-rattle thing and is being unfair right now.~;;]]
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ooc: NO WORRIES! With Flynn? It's never a certainty when and why he'll careen into despair and self-accusations. It's not the first time and probably not the last, either. They were GOOD FICS!
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[[*HUGS* Yeah well that's why he needs all his buddies around him to quench the angst. So.~ And <3333!]]
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ooc: *huuuuugs back! Yes, he does need them. He's just... Mmph. *pokes him*
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Sometimes our investments don't pan out the way they were supposed to. [through no fault of our own. best-laid plans, y'know?]
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Indeed. Although it's more up to the case of the road paved with good intentions. *sighs, shakes his head* I'm afraid the fault was in the investments. But ... since everybody's giving me another chance... maybe I'll act wiser now. *right. Hope dies last, right?*
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Isn't that the same thing? You make a plan... things happen. [paces over to sit on his heels beside the User, leaning over to catch your look] You learn from it. [of course you'll act wiser. you want to; everyone's backing you up. see this face? this program trusts you. he's not the only one.]
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In... theory, yeah. Except some mistakes are difficult to face-- I mean, I won't make the same ones again. *almost a smile at Ram, yes, and after a moment reaches to rub his friend's shoulder* I just... sometimes I wonder if it's not a... an inherent flaw in me. No matter how much I try, something will go wrong and others will have to take the consequences. *deep breath* Most days, I manage to point out that the fact that it has all gone wrong doesn't mean that the result will be the same in the future.
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leans against you, just a little; that is not what it's about, Flynn -- your friends are lucky to have you.
quietly] If there's anything I've learned since all this started, it's that not even a User can make nothing go wrong. Or do things that have no effect. [low chuckle] Actually, I knew that before, when I was managing peoples' finances. You always have to factor in the unexpected. If that was a design flaw, it'd be universal, so it's more like a standard feature, isn't it?
[bites his lip. maybe if he'd been stronger, he could have survived those tanks and been there for Tron and Flynn in the new system. if he'd gotten his memory back faster, he could have tried to help them, to mediate when Clu needed a different perspective, to help them plan; it was what he was made for and he'd been stuck up in Stats with no idea he'd ever met them... and he'd tried so hard to keep up, back when it counted. some failures... you just had to let them go and ( ... )
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Mmm. *he smiles, a little bit, leaning closer, too* The unexpected was where I used to be, in a way. It was the heavily skewed negative consequences that got me. I mean... it's not random chance. It was mistakes, accumulated over time which led to this. My mistakes.
*deep breath, and then catches that look on Ram and reaches an arm around his shoulders* We all did the best that we thought we could do.
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[hey, nobody goes in planning to glitch things up -- mistakes aren't random; they're mistakes. even programs are liable to error. but he's not here to debate, he's here to be here for you, so he'll save the analysis for another time.]
Hindsight's 20-20. ...........Or at least that's what the Users say. It's never easy looking back at things like that.
[waitwaitwait, why are you reassuring him again. it was supposed to be the other way around this time. have an arm around your shoulders too, old friend.] ..Yeah. We did.
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I... *beat. and then slow, small smile* There is that, yeah. I could have done better, but I can't fix it now. Just try and not repeat mistakes.
*WELL, that's how they WORK? Hugs are good* And we'll keep on doing it.
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