Is she just having trouble finding one with whats going on around here or just not the time to look. Either way thats hard and sorry to hear to. I hope things go better.
He's very girly lol. If you watch Jackass 2 with the commentary on they constantly tease Bam for being a fairy with the way he runs and walks heh. Maybe he's just in denial and wants Ryan instead and that hurt his marriage xD I think he's hot though and with those eyes ughn. I'm a sucker for pretty eyes.
Sometimes it just varies with me. I start off writing cute but I just get fidgety and can never stick with it so usually turns to abuse, heart break, death, murder. Going through my list even if they have a happy ending theres something bad taking place haha. One of mine Coby loses his wife and two boys and his life is falling apart but he meets James and its pretty :)
a pet LMAO. make sure you get its offspring so you can keep it in a aquarium in your room then flush it down the toilet when it gets too big xD ahaha jk. Do you watch Robot Chicken? That show is fricken hilarious. I do like their music. I do like metal to despite some of the other things on my play list haha.
I dont usually give a fuck either because they dont really know me and are just making their assumptions and thats one of the worst things somebody can do. as i say 'assuming makes an ass out of u'
lol thought it was measured by that but oh well. I've been out of school for awhile. I need to dig out my text books one of these days and refresh myself =x I plan on going back but just idk what to be and with the time and money.
Yeah i saw the pics of Matt with the hair but theres been some posted recently in a comm of him with a fan where his hat is OFF as in you can see it all and its just.. wow lol. He seriously needs to comb it or cut it off. And yeah Jimmy has this giant bushy mountain man beard and I just went -blink- because its.. strange. Brian has the fedora on in the pics to. I so flailed like a little girl lol. but i loved his old BATH look. Can you open links to another journal or shall I save them and link it here? Cuz I know how bad your comp acts up.
there it is anyways just in case. The beard is in the youtube video. it zooms in real close to get a good look. Not surprising about the new video as often as theyre always in the studio. I'm excited for it though.
a little of both. it's just so hard up here because our part of pennsylvania is practically in the middle of freaking no where.
asking me if i watched Jackass 2 with the commentary on is like asking tiger woods if he's played a game of golf, haha. and he does run like a girl. 8D. plus, he loves cupcakes and sparkly things, so yeah, he's a fairy....sometimes divorces are a good thing!
there's always angst in any piece of shit i decide to conjure up, too. a fight, a death, a rape, a beating, amental breakdown, whatever. i am not a happy person, haha.
i could never flush it down the toilet! i'd just....buy a bigger pool. I LOVE ROBOT CHICKEN! action figures are still fun to play with, especially when animated, haha. of course you like Metal. i probably wouldn't be tlaking to you if you didn't, after all, Metalcore is under that huge-ass umbrella, too.
haa. i went to a town i used to live in to go visit someone today, and before we did we stopped for lunch at the diner in the middle of town. when we walked in, there was this kid cleaning windows, and i knew him, cuz he was in my 6th grade class when we lived there. i recognized him, but he didn't me. the funny part is though, he held the door open for everyone, but when he saw he he kinda retreated back; i had bondage pants on, a Headbanger's Ball shirt, my hair was messy, i had a pair of aviators on, and of course, LIP RING. this kid looked afraid. made me laugh so bad when we sat down because i remember this kid wasn't that bad when i knew him. just goes to show "normal" people will jump back from anything out of the ordinary.
wheni get out of school, i gotta say that that'll be it for me. if depression doesn't really get me first, i'm not going to college. it's only because i couldn't function in an environment like that, not with what's wrong with me. i deal with enough of hiding things, i couldn't hold it in if i was there, and plus, we just couldn't afford it & i don't wanna.
HOLY FUCKING SHIT ON A MUFFIN DUDE, THEY'VE BEEN REPLACED WITH HAIRY GORILLAS!
that's horrified-language for "yes, i can open links and i downloaded the video." that just AIN'T RIGHT!
Ew well I hope everything goes alright and she manages to find something.
LOL yeah i shouldve figured you had watched the commentary. I love in the bonus features when Bam and weeman go running through the hotel naked. I will admit I completly giggled like a little girl at that even though I'm an adult rofl. I couldn't help myself it was just amusing and the angle practically ZOOMS in on his crotch. Well purple isn't so bad as you said earlier cuz his wedding with the purple, black and the vines was just absolutly gorgeous but the rest heh. I fully agree.
Writing is usually my ultimate stress reliever because I can totally unleash my wrath on somebody and not be carted away to jail for assault haha. I have a few rapes, a beating and stuff like that. I wrote one yesterday (omg a fic rofl) that more messed with their feelings and put them in a tight situation. It was fun and it turned out to be 4400 words long. I was surprised at myself. It's a Mest fic tho cuz i actually have a Matt/Jere line and the muse just poked me relentlessly until I gave in. I AM WEAKK -falls to knees- loll.
Didnt think you would but it was just a joke cuz im sure you know the whole 'alligator in the sewer' legends so why not giant possessed seahorses to? and rofl in the pool. it'd be the guard dog thats for sure though even a pool wouldn't be big enough. That thing looked to be a good 50 feet long if not bigger. Lol speaking of action figures you seen the 'bumper sticker' thing on my myspace thing my brother sent me? its the dead squirrel some guy set up with army men and says "why grown men shouldn't be allowed to play with action figures'. It amuses me everytime. I do like metal but i have some other guilty artists on my playlist to =x haha oh well. Ive been listening to Bleeding Through and Five Finger Death Punch a lot lately.
Hahaha thats great. I remember one time for boredum I completely dressed up in goth clothes with choker, bracelet, eye liner, black shirt with fishnet, boots the works and went to the mall. I got a lot of strange looks that was for sure. Chelsea (i know i told you about her) changed a lot. she went from i guess you could say punk. She wasnt quite goth. (shopped mostly at Hot Topic and Spencers) to like poster girl for Abercrombie. It was just strange because I didnt know who she was anymore personality or looks. I remember getting a school picture of her her mom had sent for the graduation and my mom showed me and i literally asked 'whos that'. I had known the girl 11 years beforehand so that tells you something.
I'm sure even if I did go back if it would be what would be for me. I get bored easily and could I really spend the next like 15 years of my life in school for a job I'm not even goin to like or even keep? It's just frustrating and idk. I knew a girl at my job that had a fucking Masters degree and was serving tables because she kinda went through the same thing. It just leaves things too open for a decision. What is wrong with you or that part of the 'when you're ready to tell me' thing?
LOLOLOL. Impersonators! I told you they looked crazy! Syn at least looks again and Zacky hasnt changed but the other three just ;saljfdafad Matt's hair would look better if he combed it or made it look nicer, Johnny needs to go back to the mohawk and Rev needs to be attacked with a weed wacker!
and PS i had started a Johnny/Bam, Shads/Bam fic not long ago called 'Broken' did you get around to reading it in my list in the fic journal I added you in?
god, thos emovies rule my life. first time i watched it was after i bought the double movie boxset, and i made my mom, my brother, and my best friend watch it with me. my mom laughs, my bother laughs, and my best friend who has absolutely no tv whatsoever, loves it....XD. i got a screen still from that part that i'd found before i watched the movie. when i found it i was like "well, why is it not surprising i found his penis when i googled him?"
i started writing something today that i'll probably finish in an hour, because today was really depressing. my mom went balistic on me cuz i just whacked my brother in the nuts (not hard, mind you.) and she started ranting and suddenly went "...your brother isn't one of those Jackass guys...!", which is where i drew the line, so i flipped her off and went outside to write....and i came up with the plotline of a sotry where Ryan's abusing Bam, but he's guilty so he cuts himself. got pretty far so far. not a total piece of shit.
true, a pool wouldn't be big enough.....there's a pond across the road form me that's private property, but i've no idea how deep it is, so that's out...huh, no i haven't seen that. i'mma go look for it....i think the softest artist on my playlist is....haha. this band called Milk...it's only one song and the only reason i have it is because the lead singer is the director for Jackass. he wrote the song in 1994 and it's only slightly famous because (if you've seen the show My Name Is Earl, this is him ->) Jason Lee is a professional street skateboarder and that's the song he used in his skate videos way back when. it's an Indie Rock song, and i freaking hate Indie, but it doesn't sound like it. It's called "The Knife Song" ....oh wait! maybe you've heard part of it, it's the song they play during the car rental skit in the beginning of the first Jackass movie.....but otherwise everything on my playlist is relatively heavy or Punk. Heaviest is probably Cannibal Corpse.
that's....pretty sad. i mean, i know they say posers just dress that way to look it and shit, but i dress that way cuz i love it. i'll go to the mall in bondage pants and chains and shit. but i think it's cool, not..."cool". i admit, i love it when it scares people, but hey, that's me. i can tell a poser when i see one....it disgusts me that someone will change from faze to faze just to impress people.
that's another thing....really, when do people actually decide they're going to do something for the rest of their life and actually do it? ....it's part of it, what i'll tell you. i'll explain that later, but theother part is that i just...freaking hate people. plus, really i'm smart enough already, i study enough things that equal out what i learn in school....i don't need a paid education.
i'm convinced they're impersonators. first the piercings started leaving, now they're growinghair everywhere. either they're werewolves who are repelled by silver facial jewelry instead of silver bullets, or they just REALLYYYY need to mow their heads.
O.O; if i'd known about it, i woulda read it.....i'mma go find that now.....
ahah. My mom isn't into stuff like that though i bet if I made her watch it she probably would laugh because some of the stunts are just completely LOL worthy. I still think the one that amuses me the most is locking Bam in the horse trailer with the cobra and he just FLIPS out rofl. Poor boy but makes for great entertainment xD I know my dad would like it. He likes some of my music despite his age haha. (remember my grandparents raised me so i call them mom and dad. they'll be 70 in october). My real dad tho i take completely after him, music, looks attitude haha. so no problem there xD
Ive kicked my bro in the nuts before when he would piss me off. that or a good whack to the shin (which can be pretty painful). My egg donor (birth mother blegh) didn't even try to hide she played favorites between my brother and I. she'd let him get away with everything and yell at me for shit and god the list goes on and on so I really know your pain. I wasn't really writing back then but if I had I'm sure theyd be a lot more brutal then they are right now. That line/story does sound pretty good though. You'll have to send it to me in chapters or at least as a whole when you finish.
i have no idea how deep private ponds can get but i dont think theyre that deep. Was it man made or a natural pond? Theres a man made town lake not far from our house and i think the deepest part of it is only like 30 feet and its several miles long. Real pretty tho and good area to go bike riding (when its not 120 damn degrees outside). I have anything from Simple Plan to Slipknot to Bryan Adams to Bleeding Through. If I like it I like it and dont really care if it fits in or not. I've always had a pretty open mind. I even have a few country songs in my playlist from fun and fast to soft and pretty. And speaking of soft songs you not have 'Line in the Sand' by B.T? i always ahve to put it on repeat cuz its so pretty once just never seems enough I have some scren caps on my laptop i took of all the artists i'll have to put up here.
Whats sad Oo? that I went out or what happened with Chelsea? I was just bored and only did it that once. I used to have pics but i deleted them thinking i wouldnt need them. Usually I just dress in whatevers comfortable ahah. I have a bunch of band shirts and shorts and thats usually my attire. Every blue moon i'll have a 'pretty' day where I put on one of my two skirts and just ya know. look nice. It was hilarious looking at their faces and yeah I usually can tell to. Chelsea did that. She bounced with trends. last i saw her in person she had her nose pierced (back when EVERYBODY had one.) Just eh. idk. even if its been years ince we've been friends its weird to see her so different.
A lot of it is financial to. you spend hundreds of thousands in nice colleges for a nice job but spend that money paying off all your financial aid. It's like one big never ending vicious circle and now i'm just plain confused what has you so awkward telling people having to do with school and a job Oo Unless I just completely read that wrong. Thats a big topic of school districts these days. Kids are in classes for 7 hours a day and go home and have 5 hours worth of homework. If you cant teach a kid what he needs to learn in that amount of time then half of it just seems pointless. I mean in college classes, where the FUCK are we going to use calculus?
Well if you look really closely at the pic of Zack and Syn together, Zacky has his piercings back in again which look good so its not so bad and the rest of that seriously cracked me up. I love werewolves ahha. Theyve always been a favorite of mine to vampires. they just look pretty and go 'hiss' while drinking your blood. borrringg. Get something with teeth and claws and strength. YES. muaha. But they need to mow. I wonder if somebody has sent them a waxing kit or a electric razor yet.
I had said i'd started it! i thought it could be taken as not finished Oo I sowy though if you took it wrong. I'd written it for a friend who requested it and the idea just kinda left me because I never can stick with something for long. I had had plans to go back to it (like i have several of my other fics) but just idk. Maybe since I know I'll have a devoted reader it'll be inspiration i need
don't worry, i remember. haha....i'm not sure whether Bam really is deathly afraid of snakes or not. sure, he cried in that movie, but i have a picture of him standing in the middle of NYC with an albino Burmese Python wrapped about his shoulders and not flipping the fuck out.....kinda confuses me. i take completely after my dad. sure, my mom likes Motley Crue, but my dad liked Ozzy n' shit....tons more like him. ha...
i admit, i've been an asshole to my brother since he was born, but my mom has ACTUALLY (and i kid you not, i'm serious) threatened to take me to court fort abuse on his behalf. the worst thing i've ever done is give him a good smakc to the head, but nothing that could severely hurt him, i wouldn't do that.....and sure, if i finish it and it isn't complete fucking shit on a stick, i guess i'll send it to you when i'm done.....but i don't do chapters. not my thing. i just write small paragraphs per vantage point.
i've no idea what it is. i've only lived in this house for 3 years....-horrified look- COUNTRY!?!? yick. i uhh....no, i don't. i don't like soft songs.....they bore me. heh heh. the louder and more brutal the better....
what happened to chelsea, not you! i'm always caught in a band shirt and jeans, except i've got like 5 pairs of jeans and a billino and four band shirts....i can't stand to see when girls have a stupid fucking diamond in their nose. you want a diamond, put it aorund your finger, not in your face. and i see them everywhere, it's kind of pathetic. and those girls with "nose rings" (yeah right, RINGS), stare at me horrified when i've got a freaking cone at the end of my lip ring. GOD.
you read it right.....it's useless. i don't see a point in spending a fuck-ton of money just to learn some shit you could learn in sitting at your computer. you can learn more than just being at college, look at Zacky V, he learned how to play the guitar from watching music videos! and y'know where you use calculus? you use it when you TEACH KIDS CALCULUS IN SCHOOL! now that's a stupid-ass vicious circle.
werewolves are amazing. you like Stephen King, don't you? his book Cycle of the Werewolf, is one of his shortest but one of my favorites. i think werewolves are real, just like all other cryptids. vampires....not so sure, maybe in mind, not in state.....there's a kid i know who goes to alot of their concerts, i'll give him a pack of razos to throw next time he goes.
uhhh....yeah i didn't....i need to write the first idea i get for a plot bunny or else i'll lose it totally. sometimes i go back and read other things that i have, and try to write more, but then i give up and hit something else.....yay, i'm inspiration!
cuz its long so part 1 lolcreatngnewscarsAugust 10 2009, 05:32:44 UTC
I think it was more of the fact they threw a COBRA in with him and the one snake dude (i forget his name. long scraggly grey hair haha) had said Bam didn't know the thing was defanged. Most species of cobras can grow up to 18 feet long (which is ginormous for a non constrictor) and are one of the top 5 deadliest snakes in the world. I'd probably be freaking the fuck out if somebody did that to me to lol. I love reptiles. I didn't have many friends in highschool so sometimes I'd go to the reptile room in the biology center and see the big boas or the little gardner snakes. we had a real pretty white and yelow one. i think it was a young burmese cuz it was still small. My birth dad loves metal and stuff. he's the one that got me into combi christ xD. he and my uncles all are like rockers haha. Wayne (the youngest) was a total like gothy metal head when he was younger.
Theres five years between me and my younger brother so we clashed BAD growing up. He was a little shit and always wanted to tag along with me and of course my stupid fucking egg donor always made me take me with him or threat of grounding. One time Dustin (the bro), pushed me OFF of our full sized trampoline and into the heavy metal patio furniture almost breaking my neck and she got mad at ME because I'd accidently popped the balloon he had. I caught her snorting something up on a roadtrip once and this was with her two kids in the car. I finally reached the point of telling her 'you're not my mother' because I was just so tired of it. I hardly ever heard my real name, most the time it was 'schmuck' and i forget what else she called me. and LOL shit on a stick. my dad uses that term a lot.
rofl its a whole like 2 songs if i remembe right and neither even sound like country. One may as well be rock and the other is just a pretty one. My whole family is from texas, i was the first generation born here in Arizona so i kinda grew up on it until my dad and uncles and friends got me into other stuff. (before she turned preppy Chelsea actually was the one to introduce me to Atreyu). and LOL funny story time. One time i had my pretty day with my hair straightened, in a pretty top and a black and white skirt. looking like i should be driving a mercedes listening to britney spears or something when instead im in a big red truck blasting Mudvayne - Determined. Windows rolled down rocking out and having a great time. The looks i got from people were PRICELESS. omg. ive bene meaning to do it again. Other then Line in the Sand most soft songs do drive me nuts haha. my old playlist (before i had to reset my counter) every song had at least a 4 or higher by it except the soft ones. i should just delete them as id ont even bother.
You got it right it was a little stud. On the right side I believe it was and omfg she was stickly skinny thin. it was scary. She had like chicken wing arms (where its real bony. im sure you know the expression as you hate posers/preps). I'll have to try to see if i can find a good before picture of her and then scan the after. even youd be like 'who the fuck' im sure. she had bondage pants with chains, gaged/stretched ears, band shirts, these cool black sheets with like dragons on them to just....no. I dont even understand the attraction to diamons. sure theyre rare and expensive but theyre boring to me. theyre clear and just there...nothing. i like sapphires and emeralds and rubys. stuff with color and brillance. I dont even really wear jewlry much less own it haha. I have a watch, a moon necklace, and a little ring with a star on it. thats it.
Sometimes people who do do it dont even get the jobs because i heard from a friend one of his friends was denied because he was 'over qualified' or some kind of shit. What the hell? You would think they would WANT people with experience so their company wont go down the shitter. I just dont understand half the stuff that goes on and usually try to stay out of it. I work at a restaraunt as a busser probably one of the lowest jobs people critisize for but i make my managers mad because 3/4 the time i make more an hour then they do from my tips. Thats well enough for me. I dont need no 30th floor on some corporate building and be miserable. I love my job.
Yup i love stephen king haha. between my aunt and I we have like every one of his books. She has a few back when he still published under Richard Bachman rather then S.K. Cycle of the Werewolf was amazing. they made a movie of it to called Silver Bullet that was good. Stuck close to the book (cuz most the time they brutalize the adaptations). Patricia Briggs writes a really good werewolf series and so does Susan Krinard. Theres a bunch more but id have to go find them and im lazy lol. And must include the movie Rise of the Lycans ♥♥ I fully believe in cryptids to. and ghost and call me nutty even aliens. i dont think we're really vane enough to believe we're the only planet in the fucking universe that has life and intellegence on it. Maybe the anal probe stories are a bit far fetched but they gaurd area 51 like fort knox and yet its 'not supposed to exist'. say much? i think so. HAHA or maybe try to get in backstage and hand it over personally. thatd be funnier to see. Tell him to give them to Jimmy!
Thats the thing though is i do write for ideas but i just cant stick with them either because I lose interest (like the job thing i just cant stick with the same thing for long. why 99.9 percent of my fics are one shots), or another muse kicks its butt and takes over to persuade me to write another one. Just for old times i did go back and reread Broken as well. Id forgotten how bad i had really fucked Bam up Oo I still have the ideas written down in the word document so hopefully i can follow them. not sure how well i can go with the 5K+ word chapters tho. that was a dare Kaz had given me.(the one who requested the pairing/idea).
[we're going to need a new thread soon lol or move to a new post. that scroll bar is hilariously small)
part 1 because i talk alot.twstedsafetypinAugust 11 2009, 00:46:58 UTC
well, no, i mean, it is alleged that he is seriously OMFG GIRLY CRYING DEATHLY AFRAID of snakes.....the perosn i got the picture form said that apparantly the guy who let Bam hold the snake told him it was fake.....but it wasn't....and he didn't know...until it moved. but i dunno....my dad was kicked out of school in 8th grade. he had nothing really to do besides listen to music and and work.
my mom...is just a fucking dipshit. and i use that lightly. she has this problem that she got from her mother (fuck forbid i get this way) that you can say something to her and it'll go right over her head, and in a weird way. like....i'll go into the kitchen, right? she ALWAYS comes out of her room to see what someone's doing in the kitchen. say i'll be making a sandwich. she'll asking me what i'm doing, and then i tell her "nicely". then she'll ask the same damn question, and i'll growl it at her. then, she'll ask me if i'm going to eat it, i say yes in a nasty way, call her a dumbass, and she'll blow up. she will go fucking NUTS after one of those little dipshitisms she has....shit on a stick....haha.
there's also something she's done that i can never forgive her for....when i was from the ages of 7 to 9, there was this man....he's my grandmother's HUSBAND now, just so you're ahead of the stupidity....let's just say he couldn't keep his hands to himself or his comments either...he wouldn't leave me alone, even after i told my mom. she said she was going to put him in jail, but she never. she even asks him favors, too, and let's him get away with insulting me. when i bring the subject up....she just tells me to shut up about it and that she can't do anything.....i'm just waiting for the day that he dies (he's in his 70s, see...)...that'll be the greatest day of my life, and she won't prevent me from enjoying it.
XD. whenever my mom drives ups more than 10 miles in our blazer, i have one of those cassette hook-ups i hook to my mp3 and i blast Metal, espcecially with the windows open. people give us funny looks too, cuz how often do you hear Deicide blasting from a car with a 46 year old woman driving and, a 10 year old in the back, and me in shotgun. haha.
oh good god, that's repulsive. she even had gauged ears? that's retarded. i don't like jewelry, AT ALL unless it's in my face, but i do like the colorful gem things....most likely because of the Pokemon games named after them, haha....i like onyx too, and that's due to the Pokemon named Onix, along with it being black. i bought some lip rings at walmart that had extra ball studs with it, but they all had gems in them...they looked gaughty even the onyx one. otherwise, i only own jewelry that i'll A) eventually sell because i stole it. or B) if they're rings, they automaticvally become crowns for my Pokemon figures.
He's very girly lol. If you watch Jackass 2 with the commentary on they constantly tease Bam for being a fairy with the way he runs and walks heh. Maybe he's just in denial and wants Ryan instead and that hurt his marriage xD I think he's hot though and with those eyes ughn. I'm a sucker for pretty eyes.
Sometimes it just varies with me. I start off writing cute but I just get fidgety and can never stick with it so usually turns to abuse, heart break, death, murder. Going through my list even if they have a happy ending theres something bad taking place haha. One of mine Coby loses his wife and two boys and his life is falling apart but he meets James and its pretty :)
a pet LMAO. make sure you get its offspring so you can keep it in a aquarium in your room then flush it down the toilet when it gets too big xD ahaha jk. Do you watch Robot Chicken? That show is fricken hilarious. I do like their music. I do like metal to despite some of the other things on my play list haha.
I dont usually give a fuck either because they dont really know me and are just making their assumptions and thats one of the worst things somebody can do. as i say 'assuming makes an ass out of u'
lol thought it was measured by that but oh well. I've been out of school for awhile. I need to dig out my text books one of these days and refresh myself =x I plan on going back but just idk what to be and with the time and money.
Yeah i saw the pics of Matt with the hair but theres been some posted recently in a comm of him with a fan where his hat is OFF as in you can see it all and its just.. wow lol. He seriously needs to comb it or cut it off. And yeah Jimmy has this giant bushy mountain man beard and I just went -blink- because its.. strange. Brian has the fedora on in the pics to. I so flailed like a little girl lol. but i loved his old BATH look. Can you open links to another journal or shall I save them and link it here? Cuz I know how bad your comp acts up.
http://community.livejournal.com/a7x/786598.html#cutid1
there it is anyways just in case. The beard is in the youtube video. it zooms in real close to get a good look. Not surprising about the new video as often as theyre always in the studio. I'm excited for it though.
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asking me if i watched Jackass 2 with the commentary on is like asking tiger woods if he's played a game of golf, haha. and he does run like a girl. 8D. plus, he loves cupcakes and sparkly things, so yeah, he's a fairy....sometimes divorces are a good thing!
there's always angst in any piece of shit i decide to conjure up, too. a fight, a death, a rape, a beating, amental breakdown, whatever. i am not a happy person, haha.
i could never flush it down the toilet! i'd just....buy a bigger pool. I LOVE ROBOT CHICKEN! action figures are still fun to play with, especially when animated, haha. of course you like Metal. i probably wouldn't be tlaking to you if you didn't, after all, Metalcore is under that huge-ass umbrella, too.
haa. i went to a town i used to live in to go visit someone today, and before we did we stopped for lunch at the diner in the middle of town. when we walked in, there was this kid cleaning windows, and i knew him, cuz he was in my 6th grade class when we lived there. i recognized him, but he didn't me. the funny part is though, he held the door open for everyone, but when he saw he he kinda retreated back; i had bondage pants on, a Headbanger's Ball shirt, my hair was messy, i had a pair of aviators on, and of course, LIP RING. this kid looked afraid. made me laugh so bad when we sat down because i remember this kid wasn't that bad when i knew him. just goes to show "normal" people will jump back from anything out of the ordinary.
wheni get out of school, i gotta say that that'll be it for me. if depression doesn't really get me first, i'm not going to college. it's only because i couldn't function in an environment like that, not with what's wrong with me. i deal with enough of hiding things, i couldn't hold it in if i was there, and plus, we just couldn't afford it & i don't wanna.
HOLY FUCKING SHIT ON A MUFFIN DUDE, THEY'VE BEEN REPLACED WITH HAIRY GORILLAS!
that's horrified-language for "yes, i can open links and i downloaded the video." that just AIN'T RIGHT!
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LOL yeah i shouldve figured you had watched the commentary. I love in the bonus features when Bam and weeman go running through the hotel naked. I will admit I completly giggled like a little girl at that even though I'm an adult rofl. I couldn't help myself it was just amusing and the angle practically ZOOMS in on his crotch. Well purple isn't so bad as you said earlier cuz his wedding with the purple, black and the vines was just absolutly gorgeous but the rest heh. I fully agree.
Writing is usually my ultimate stress reliever because I can totally unleash my wrath on somebody and not be carted away to jail for assault haha. I have a few rapes, a beating and stuff like that. I wrote one yesterday (omg a fic rofl) that more messed with their feelings and put them in a tight situation. It was fun and it turned out to be 4400 words long. I was surprised at myself. It's a Mest fic tho cuz i actually have a Matt/Jere line and the muse just poked me relentlessly until I gave in. I AM WEAKK -falls to knees- loll.
Didnt think you would but it was just a joke cuz im sure you know the whole 'alligator in the sewer' legends so why not giant possessed seahorses to? and rofl in the pool. it'd be the guard dog thats for sure though even a pool wouldn't be big enough. That thing looked to be a good 50 feet long if not bigger. Lol speaking of action figures you seen the 'bumper sticker' thing on my myspace thing my brother sent me? its the dead squirrel some guy set up with army men and says "why grown men shouldn't be allowed to play with action figures'. It amuses me everytime. I do like metal but i have some other guilty artists on my playlist to =x haha oh well. Ive been listening to Bleeding Through and Five Finger Death Punch a lot lately.
Hahaha thats great. I remember one time for boredum I completely dressed up in goth clothes with choker, bracelet, eye liner, black shirt with fishnet, boots the works and went to the mall. I got a lot of strange looks that was for sure. Chelsea (i know i told you about her) changed a lot. she went from i guess you could say punk. She wasnt quite goth. (shopped mostly at Hot Topic and Spencers) to like poster girl for Abercrombie. It was just strange because I didnt know who she was anymore personality or looks. I remember getting a school picture of her her mom had sent for the graduation and my mom showed me and i literally asked 'whos that'. I had known the girl 11 years beforehand so that tells you something.
I'm sure even if I did go back if it would be what would be for me. I get bored easily and could I really spend the next like 15 years of my life in school for a job I'm not even goin to like or even keep? It's just frustrating and idk. I knew a girl at my job that had a fucking Masters degree and was serving tables because she kinda went through the same thing. It just leaves things too open for a decision. What is wrong with you or that part of the 'when you're ready to tell me' thing?
LOLOLOL. Impersonators! I told you they looked crazy! Syn at least looks again and Zacky hasnt changed but the other three just ;saljfdafad Matt's hair would look better if he combed it or made it look nicer, Johnny needs to go back to the mohawk and Rev needs to be attacked with a weed wacker!
and PS i had started a Johnny/Bam, Shads/Bam fic not long ago called 'Broken' did you get around to reading it in my list in the fic journal I added you in?
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god, thos emovies rule my life. first time i watched it was after i bought the double movie boxset, and i made my mom, my brother, and my best friend watch it with me. my mom laughs, my bother laughs, and my best friend who has absolutely no tv whatsoever, loves it....XD. i got a screen still from that part that i'd found before i watched the movie. when i found it i was like "well, why is it not surprising i found his penis when i googled him?"
i started writing something today that i'll probably finish in an hour, because today was really depressing. my mom went balistic on me cuz i just whacked my brother in the nuts (not hard, mind you.) and she started ranting and suddenly went "...your brother isn't one of those Jackass guys...!", which is where i drew the line, so i flipped her off and went outside to write....and i came up with the plotline of a sotry where Ryan's abusing Bam, but he's guilty so he cuts himself. got pretty far so far. not a total piece of shit.
true, a pool wouldn't be big enough.....there's a pond across the road form me that's private property, but i've no idea how deep it is, so that's out...huh, no i haven't seen that. i'mma go look for it....i think the softest artist on my playlist is....haha. this band called Milk...it's only one song and the only reason i have it is because the lead singer is the director for Jackass. he wrote the song in 1994 and it's only slightly famous because (if you've seen the show My Name Is Earl, this is him ->) Jason Lee is a professional street skateboarder and that's the song he used in his skate videos way back when. it's an Indie Rock song, and i freaking hate Indie, but it doesn't sound like it. It's called "The Knife Song" ....oh wait! maybe you've heard part of it, it's the song they play during the car rental skit in the beginning of the first Jackass movie.....but otherwise everything on my playlist is relatively heavy or Punk. Heaviest is probably Cannibal Corpse.
that's....pretty sad. i mean, i know they say posers just dress that way to look it and shit, but i dress that way cuz i love it. i'll go to the mall in bondage pants and chains and shit. but i think it's cool, not..."cool". i admit, i love it when it scares people, but hey, that's me. i can tell a poser when i see one....it disgusts me that someone will change from faze to faze just to impress people.
that's another thing....really, when do people actually decide they're going to do something for the rest of their life and actually do it? ....it's part of it, what i'll tell you. i'll explain that later, but theother part is that i just...freaking hate people. plus, really i'm smart enough already, i study enough things that equal out what i learn in school....i don't need a paid education.
i'm convinced they're impersonators. first the piercings started leaving, now they're growinghair everywhere. either they're werewolves who are repelled by silver facial jewelry instead of silver bullets, or they just REALLYYYY need to mow their heads.
O.O; if i'd known about it, i woulda read it.....i'mma go find that now.....
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Ive kicked my bro in the nuts before when he would piss me off. that or a good whack to the shin (which can be pretty painful). My egg donor (birth mother blegh) didn't even try to hide she played favorites between my brother and I. she'd let him get away with everything and yell at me for shit and god the list goes on and on so I really know your pain. I wasn't really writing back then but if I had I'm sure theyd be a lot more brutal then they are right now. That line/story does sound pretty good though. You'll have to send it to me in chapters or at least as a whole when you finish.
i have no idea how deep private ponds can get but i dont think theyre that deep. Was it man made or a natural pond? Theres a man made town lake not far from our house and i think the deepest part of it is only like 30 feet and its several miles long. Real pretty tho and good area to go bike riding (when its not 120 damn degrees outside). I have anything from Simple Plan to Slipknot to Bryan Adams to Bleeding Through. If I like it I like it and dont really care if it fits in or not. I've always had a pretty open mind. I even have a few country songs in my playlist from fun and fast to soft and pretty. And speaking of soft songs you not have 'Line in the Sand' by B.T? i always ahve to put it on repeat cuz its so pretty once just never seems enough I have some scren caps on my laptop i took of all the artists i'll have to put up here.
Whats sad Oo? that I went out or what happened with Chelsea? I was just bored and only did it that once. I used to have pics but i deleted them thinking i wouldnt need them. Usually I just dress in whatevers comfortable ahah. I have a bunch of band shirts and shorts and thats usually my attire. Every blue moon i'll have a 'pretty' day where I put on one of my two skirts and just ya know. look nice. It was hilarious looking at their faces and yeah I usually can tell to. Chelsea did that. She bounced with trends. last i saw her in person she had her nose pierced (back when EVERYBODY had one.) Just eh. idk. even if its been years ince we've been friends its weird to see her so different.
A lot of it is financial to. you spend hundreds of thousands in nice colleges for a nice job but spend that money paying off all your financial aid. It's like one big never ending vicious circle and now i'm just plain confused what has you so awkward telling people having to do with school and a job Oo Unless I just completely read that wrong. Thats a big topic of school districts these days. Kids are in classes for 7 hours a day and go home and have 5 hours worth of homework. If you cant teach a kid what he needs to learn in that amount of time then half of it just seems pointless. I mean in college classes, where the FUCK are we going to use calculus?
Well if you look really closely at the pic of Zack and Syn together, Zacky has his piercings back in again which look good so its not so bad and the rest of that seriously cracked me up. I love werewolves ahha. Theyve always been a favorite of mine to vampires. they just look pretty and go 'hiss' while drinking your blood. borrringg. Get something with teeth and claws and strength. YES. muaha. But they need to mow. I wonder if somebody has sent them a waxing kit or a electric razor yet.
I had said i'd started it! i thought it could be taken as not finished Oo I sowy though if you took it wrong. I'd written it for a friend who requested it and the idea just kinda left me because I never can stick with something for long. I had had plans to go back to it (like i have several of my other fics) but just idk. Maybe since I know I'll have a devoted reader it'll be inspiration i need
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i admit, i've been an asshole to my brother since he was born, but my mom has ACTUALLY (and i kid you not, i'm serious) threatened to take me to court fort abuse on his behalf. the worst thing i've ever done is give him a good smakc to the head, but nothing that could severely hurt him, i wouldn't do that.....and sure, if i finish it and it isn't complete fucking shit on a stick, i guess i'll send it to you when i'm done.....but i don't do chapters. not my thing. i just write small paragraphs per vantage point.
i've no idea what it is. i've only lived in this house for 3 years....-horrified look- COUNTRY!?!? yick. i uhh....no, i don't. i don't like soft songs.....they bore me. heh heh. the louder and more brutal the better....
what happened to chelsea, not you! i'm always caught in a band shirt and jeans, except i've got like 5 pairs of jeans and a billino and four band shirts....i can't stand to see when girls have a stupid fucking diamond in their nose. you want a diamond, put it aorund your finger, not in your face. and i see them everywhere, it's kind of pathetic. and those girls with "nose rings" (yeah right, RINGS), stare at me horrified when i've got a freaking cone at the end of my lip ring. GOD.
you read it right.....it's useless. i don't see a point in spending a fuck-ton of money just to learn some shit you could learn in sitting at your computer. you can learn more than just being at college, look at Zacky V, he learned how to play the guitar from watching music videos! and y'know where you use calculus? you use it when you TEACH KIDS CALCULUS IN SCHOOL! now that's a stupid-ass vicious circle.
werewolves are amazing. you like Stephen King, don't you? his book Cycle of the Werewolf, is one of his shortest but one of my favorites. i think werewolves are real, just like all other cryptids. vampires....not so sure, maybe in mind, not in state.....there's a kid i know who goes to alot of their concerts, i'll give him a pack of razos to throw next time he goes.
uhhh....yeah i didn't....i need to write the first idea i get for a plot bunny or else i'll lose it totally. sometimes i go back and read other things that i have, and try to write more, but then i give up and hit something else.....yay, i'm inspiration!
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Theres five years between me and my younger brother so we clashed BAD growing up. He was a little shit and always wanted to tag along with me and of course my stupid fucking egg donor always made me take me with him or threat of grounding. One time Dustin (the bro), pushed me OFF of our full sized trampoline and into the heavy metal patio furniture almost breaking my neck and she got mad at ME because I'd accidently popped the balloon he had. I caught her snorting something up on a roadtrip once and this was with her two kids in the car. I finally reached the point of telling her 'you're not my mother' because I was just so tired of it. I hardly ever heard my real name, most the time it was 'schmuck' and i forget what else she called me. and LOL shit on a stick. my dad uses that term a lot.
rofl its a whole like 2 songs if i remembe right and neither even sound like country. One may as well be rock and the other is just a pretty one. My whole family is from texas, i was the first generation born here in Arizona so i kinda grew up on it until my dad and uncles and friends got me into other stuff. (before she turned preppy Chelsea actually was the one to introduce me to Atreyu). and LOL funny story time. One time i had my pretty day with my hair straightened, in a pretty top and a black and white skirt. looking like i should be driving a mercedes listening to britney spears or something when instead im in a big red truck blasting Mudvayne - Determined.
Windows rolled down rocking out and having a great time. The looks i got from people were PRICELESS. omg. ive bene meaning to do it again. Other then Line in the Sand most soft songs do drive me nuts haha. my old playlist (before i had to reset my counter) every song had at least a 4 or higher by it except the soft ones. i should just delete them as id ont even bother.
You got it right it was a little stud. On the right side I believe it was and omfg she was stickly skinny thin. it was scary. She had like chicken wing arms (where its real bony. im sure you know the expression as you hate posers/preps). I'll have to try to see if i can find a good before picture of her and then scan the after. even youd be like 'who the fuck' im sure. she had bondage pants with chains, gaged/stretched ears, band shirts, these cool black sheets with like dragons on them to just....no. I dont even understand the attraction to diamons. sure theyre rare and expensive but theyre boring to me. theyre clear and just there...nothing. i like sapphires and emeralds and rubys. stuff with color and brillance. I dont even really wear jewlry much less own it haha. I have a watch, a moon necklace, and a little ring with a star on it. thats it.
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Yup i love stephen king haha. between my aunt and I we have like every one of his books. She has a few back when he still published under Richard Bachman rather then S.K. Cycle of the Werewolf was amazing. they made a movie of it to called Silver Bullet that was good. Stuck close to the book (cuz most the time they brutalize the adaptations). Patricia Briggs writes a really good werewolf series and so does Susan Krinard. Theres a bunch more but id have to go find them and im lazy lol. And must include the movie Rise of the Lycans ♥♥ I fully believe in cryptids to. and ghost and call me nutty even aliens. i dont think we're really vane enough to believe we're the only planet in the fucking universe that has life and intellegence on it. Maybe the anal probe stories are a bit far fetched but they gaurd area 51 like fort knox and yet its 'not supposed to exist'. say much? i think so. HAHA or maybe try to get in backstage and hand it over personally. thatd be funnier to see. Tell him to give them to Jimmy!
Thats the thing though is i do write for ideas but i just cant stick with them either because I lose interest (like the job thing i just cant stick with the same thing for long. why 99.9 percent of my fics are one shots), or another muse kicks its butt and takes over to persuade me to write another one. Just for old times i did go back and reread Broken as well. Id forgotten how bad i had really fucked Bam up Oo I still have the ideas written down in the word document so hopefully i can follow them. not sure how well i can go with the 5K+ word chapters tho. that was a dare Kaz had given me.(the one who requested the pairing/idea).
[we're going to need a new thread soon lol or move to a new post. that scroll bar is hilariously small)
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my mom...is just a fucking dipshit. and i use that lightly. she has this problem that she got from her mother (fuck forbid i get this way) that you can say something to her and it'll go right over her head, and in a weird way. like....i'll go into the kitchen, right? she ALWAYS comes out of her room to see what someone's doing in the kitchen. say i'll be making a sandwich. she'll asking me what i'm doing, and then i tell her "nicely". then she'll ask the same damn question, and i'll growl it at her. then, she'll ask me if i'm going to eat it, i say yes in a nasty way, call her a dumbass, and she'll blow up. she will go fucking NUTS after one of those little dipshitisms she has....shit on a stick....haha.
there's also something she's done that i can never forgive her for....when i was from the ages of 7 to 9, there was this man....he's my grandmother's HUSBAND now, just so you're ahead of the stupidity....let's just say he couldn't keep his hands to himself or his comments either...he wouldn't leave me alone, even after i told my mom. she said she was going to put him in jail, but she never. she even asks him favors, too, and let's him get away with insulting me. when i bring the subject up....she just tells me to shut up about it and that she can't do anything.....i'm just waiting for the day that he dies (he's in his 70s, see...)...that'll be the greatest day of my life, and she won't prevent me from enjoying it.
XD. whenever my mom drives ups more than 10 miles in our blazer, i have one of those cassette hook-ups i hook to my mp3 and i blast Metal, espcecially with the windows open. people give us funny looks too, cuz how often do you hear Deicide blasting from a car with a 46 year old woman driving and, a 10 year old in the back, and me in shotgun. haha.
oh good god, that's repulsive. she even had gauged ears? that's retarded. i don't like jewelry, AT ALL unless it's in my face, but i do like the colorful gem things....most likely because of the Pokemon games named after them, haha....i like onyx too, and that's due to the Pokemon named Onix, along with it being black. i bought some lip rings at walmart that had extra ball studs with it, but they all had gems in them...they looked gaughty even the onyx one. otherwise, i only own jewelry that i'll A) eventually sell because i stole it. or B) if they're rings, they automaticvally become crowns for my Pokemon figures.
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