haha no. I wasnt going to kill myself though i really do appreciate your concern ♥ I'll admit there have been times its crossed my mind but others I'm far to stubborn to let somebody or even something get the best of me like that so keep on going forward just to prove them wrong. I'm a taurus by zodiac and way damn proud of it because it's really saved my life more times then I really know because of that. I just come out of it stronger in a way.
so no the post was just me hitting more the point 'dont even give a shit anymore' to the shit thats been causing it in the first place. To clairify mabye a little clearer im saying 'fuck them all' to the people because the majority of the human race can just go to hell for all i care. Hope that helps a little more.
i trust you enough to rant everything out but i wouldn't even really know where to start its just been so constant I'm losing my head and want it to just stop already. So the give up is 'dont care a bout the problems' forget it and them for awhile. Hell its been what 6-7 months since ive posted a fic? and like 3 since ive even signed on myspace. but ill still be around for plenty more years to come dont worry lol. <3
i'm only concerned cause i'm sure that if i were to say something like that, you'd be one of few people to ask what's wrong....
it happens to me alot. it gets the best of me sometimes and i can't help but admitting that i've almost done it, ut there are those times that remind me that i'm not like that anymore. all you can really do is hope for the best and keep going.
that's...that's good.it's been almost a month since we talked last and i only found that post yesterday or shit, and i've been worried since when we last talked you were all depressy. i hope it gets better.
don't worry about the ranting part. i've heard worse and i've done worse. it gets worse before it gets better, and don't i know it. it's good to know that you'll be around for a long time. you're probably one of only two friends i have, and it's not even face to face. i don't need friends, but it's....it's comforting knowing that there's someone who cares and doesn't even know what i sound like when i say it.
i woulda responded to this sooner, but my cat was acting weird & it's 3 in the morning here.
yeah i wouldve responded or tried to soon as I probably could have as I just havent really been around much but wouldn't mean i wouldn't try for the effort.
Ive never actually attempted anything as like I said I'm just too stubborn and independent to try to let people get the best of me like that no matter how depressed i might get. Though the time after Chelsea basically told me to fuck off I'd lost my appetite and dropped 43 pounds in like 2 months. hardly doubt that was healthy.
Has it really been that long? Time has just been scrambled cause if I'm not dealing with one thing its certainly another. My birthday wasnt even that enjoyable but its nothing new because I cant recall many that actually have been. and ive had 24 of them. sigh
I've always hated that saying. idky really but it just irks the shit out of me because you're already going through hell then its only to get worse, it really is hard to take optimism when the 'good' finally comes around because just expect it to go to shit again and already depressed over it being bad but eh its how i see it. Ive had like 2 months of bad shit to hear 'oh going to have more'. its where ive reached that 'fuck everybody' stage so if i do get good/better its 'i dont even care' which is pretty damn sad in a sense.
Sorry I'm not even really that dependable as I'm sure you want me to be :( I really do try though because it is very enjoyable talking to you. if it wasn't I doubt we'd have killed what 3 scroll bars by now? lol. I still need to go finish Sorrow for you to. i had a creative streak so ill have to try.
A friend is a friend so why does it really have to matter how/what they are? Pets can be best friends and they dont even really speak or understand english. a lot of people look for the companionship one has to offer so if its sitting and typing into a little box knowing theres going to be a response, that somebody cares enough to sit and take he time to write one, its comforting.
and LOL. its a cat. i dont think they know how to be normal xD btw nice icon to. We have a street here called Horne. supposed to be pernounced like Horn. but i say horn-e lol. okay im done being immature.
that's what i've reminded myself plenty of times for. i'm fucking stubborn and will never give anyone the satisfaction of me being dead. i'm too much of an asshole to give anyone that victory. i get over it, and it hasn't happned in a while.
it has. the last time i tlaked to you was a few days before i went to baltimore on a field trip, and that was over 4 weeks ago. things have been hell, and that's an understatement.
yeah, i hate it too.....whoever made it up needs to be shot in the foot.
dependable? fuck that shit. it's not like i am. whenever ya can, i understand that. poor scrollbars. hahaa, Sorrow? it's been so long since you gave me the last chapter i'm sure Alex would've died form AIDS by now. (ooh, dark humor, what a twist.)
this is true. tlaking to you is more fun than talking to the fucking morons at my lunch table, and some crazy shit really goes on there.
naww, i just meant he was....acting odd in a bad way. he was twitchin' and such and it worried me. he's okay now.
,XD i am going to go to that town one day. it just seemed like the perfect icon. i think there's a town called Horne somewhere near me....you'd figure the people naming these things would catch on.
oh, by the way......twstedsafetypinMay 25 2009, 08:42:49 UTC
oh, and i was going to send you this the other day, but then i found that post, so i'll do it now. i found these pictures, and they're REALLY recent. now, i know it looks normal, but take a close look at his hair....it's like....long, and slightly orange......
so no the post was just me hitting more the point 'dont even give a shit anymore' to the shit thats been causing it in the first place. To clairify mabye a little clearer im saying 'fuck them all' to the people because the majority of the human race can just go to hell for all i care. Hope that helps a little more.
i trust you enough to rant everything out but i wouldn't even really know where to start its just been so constant I'm losing my head and want it to just stop already. So the give up is 'dont care a bout the problems' forget it and them for awhile. Hell its been what 6-7 months since ive posted a fic? and like 3 since ive even signed on myspace. but ill still be around for plenty more years to come dont worry lol. <3
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it happens to me alot. it gets the best of me sometimes and i can't help but admitting that i've almost done it, ut there are those times that remind me that i'm not like that anymore. all you can really do is hope for the best and keep going.
that's...that's good.it's been almost a month since we talked last and i only found that post yesterday or shit, and i've been worried since when we last talked you were all depressy. i hope it gets better.
don't worry about the ranting part. i've heard worse and i've done worse. it gets worse before it gets better, and don't i know it. it's good to know that you'll be around for a long time. you're probably one of only two friends i have, and it's not even face to face. i don't need friends, but it's....it's comforting knowing that there's someone who cares and doesn't even know what i sound like when i say it.
i woulda responded to this sooner, but my cat was acting weird & it's 3 in the morning here.
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Ive never actually attempted anything as like I said I'm just too stubborn and independent to try to let people get the best of me like that no matter how depressed i might get. Though the time after Chelsea basically told me to fuck off I'd lost my appetite and dropped 43 pounds in like 2 months. hardly doubt that was healthy.
Has it really been that long? Time has just been scrambled cause if I'm not dealing with one thing its certainly another. My birthday wasnt even that enjoyable but its nothing new because I cant recall many that actually have been. and ive had 24 of them. sigh
I've always hated that saying. idky really but it just irks the shit out of me because you're already going through hell then its only to get worse, it really is hard to take optimism when the 'good' finally comes around because just expect it to go to shit again and already depressed over it being bad but eh its how i see it. Ive had like 2 months of bad shit to hear 'oh going to have more'. its where ive reached that 'fuck everybody' stage so if i do get good/better its 'i dont even care' which is pretty damn sad in a sense.
Sorry I'm not even really that dependable as I'm sure you want me to be :( I really do try though because it is very enjoyable talking to you. if it wasn't I doubt we'd have killed what 3 scroll bars by now? lol. I still need to go finish Sorrow for you to. i had a creative streak so ill have to try.
A friend is a friend so why does it really have to matter how/what they are? Pets can be best friends and they dont even really speak or understand english. a lot of people look for the companionship one has to offer so if its sitting and typing into a little box knowing theres going to be a response, that somebody cares enough to sit and take he time to write one, its comforting.
and LOL. its a cat. i dont think they know how to be normal xD btw nice icon to. We have a street here called Horne. supposed to be pernounced like Horn. but i say horn-e lol. okay im done being immature.
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it has. the last time i tlaked to you was a few days before i went to baltimore on a field trip, and that was over 4 weeks ago. things have been hell, and that's an understatement.
yeah, i hate it too.....whoever made it up needs to be shot in the foot.
dependable? fuck that shit. it's not like i am. whenever ya can, i understand that. poor scrollbars. hahaa, Sorrow? it's been so long since you gave me the last chapter i'm sure Alex would've died form AIDS by now. (ooh, dark humor, what a twist.)
this is true. tlaking to you is more fun than talking to the fucking morons at my lunch table, and some crazy shit really goes on there.
naww, i just meant he was....acting odd in a bad way. he was twitchin' and such and it worried me. he's okay now.
,XD i am going to go to that town one day. it just seemed like the perfect icon. i think there's a town called Horne somewhere near me....you'd figure the people naming these things would catch on.
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