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i just started hanging out with this girl who is ridiculously smart. normally i think i'd feel intimidated, but it's actually refreshing and inspiring to be around her (also the fact that she's really pretty doesn't hurt one bit). now she's got me thinking about going back to school....to be an engineering major. what the fuck am i thinking? that shit would completely consume my life and make me miserable. she just graduated last week and is getting all these job offers with salaries i could only dream of. i wish i didn't hate school so much. i feel like i could be much more successful if i had a degree and i feel like i should be in school while my brain still works (i hear brains begin to deteriorate when the 20s are over). i'm so conflicted because i love the job i have now. i just don't make enough money. i'd have to quit if i seriously worked on getting through school. ugh.

i'm so scattered. i feel like i'm wasting time every second i'm not productive. somehow writing this counts as productivity? i'm too tipsy right now.

i want to go back in time six years and never do whippets and ecstasy and lsd. that couldn't have been good for my brain development.

employers don't hire nice people; they hire people with degrees.