May 06, 2004 18:38
I feel like disappearing and never coming back. I feel that no one loves me...and no one will ever. Everyone hates me....so i dont want to live. People dont even understand my pain. I dont get it...why is my life so horrible? If i understood would things be better? Would I be happier? If i was what would happen? I dont know what will happen! Im afraid to live....but yet also afraid to die. I wonder if people that hated would be sad. People that i have hurt....would the be sad? I know none of this makes since but i must write it. Now i am must disapear.
I love you Alex!! and I love everyone else who took the time to read this. It means alot to me.