} 044 - [VOICE] - [PUBLIC] - de-coma'd

[creatingalegacy]

[Amanda, having slipped out of the infirmary as soon as she was awake enough, is now sprinting on unsteady legs in the direction of her cabin. The exertion in her breath is audible, and when she speaks, it's pretty damn clear that she has NO idea how long she's been out. She still thinks there's something she can do. D:]

The Admiral's a fucking

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[twoton21]

I came back with all my memories! I think others have too.

Look -- I don't think I've even met you in person since you've probably been out of it since I got here. Unless you were here before, but I was apparently gone longer than I thought, so I dunno...

I lost people I cared about back home. Not here, so I can't say I know what that's like, at all. But I did see my best friend get blown up. And like -- okay, I just really didn't handle it well. I kept talking to him even though he wasn't even really there. But I think that things mighta gone a lot better if people didn't act like they didn't know what I was going through, or like they didn't even remember him being there.

Which is exactly what a lotta important people did to me. Like the guy we worked for? I mean like -- 24 was with him even longer than I was. And when we made friends we did everything together. We were recognized as something like...almost elite, y'know? But then as soon as he was dead it was like he never existed and nothing we did before he died ever fucking mattered.

...So I guess what I'm trying to say is that a lot of people seem to care that you're going through something and that you lost somebody, even people that don't know you. Like me. So if you ever wanna talk I'm pretty easy to find.

[creatingalegacy]

[A tiny, humorless laugh.]

Christ, you really don't know me. Half the people who do are probably thinking this is exactly what I deserve.

[A pause.]

Sorry...and thanks. Even after the heroin incident, I don't really expect random people to give a shit about me. Bad fuckin' habit.

[twoton21]

Hey, you woke up and the first thing that popped into your head was helping someone else. I don't think that's a lost cause, there.

[creatingalegacy]

[She's actually taken aback that some random person would think that. Taken aback in a good way, of course.]

Thank you. That...I think I needed to hear that.

[twoton21]

Don't mention it. Call me 21. Everyone that knows me here does.

[creatingalegacy]

Okay...21. Thanks.

[That feels weird to her. Like she's talking to some kind of worker robot instead of a person with a name. But he was kind to her and he prefers it so she's not gonna judge.]