Comments | creatingalegacy: } 040 - [TEXT]

creatingalegacy

} 040 - [TEXT] - mostly public

Sep 29, 2011 15:25

Free information time is fucking over. No more. Talk all you want, think what you want--it doesn't matter anymore, does it?

But you're not getting anything else from me. Bunch of fucking vultures, that's all you people are.

[Private to Sarah]
[The connection is open for while before Amanda types anything. She doesn't, for now, mention having ( Read more... )

Leave a comment

Back to all threads

Private stopthat_destro September 29 2011, 23:43:18 UTC

For the record, I tried to stop you from telling me too much.

Re: Private creatingalegacy September 29 2011, 23:45:59 UTC

I know. It's not your fault. I know.

[Another long pause.]

You asked me once if some crimes could never be forgiven, and I said yes. Do you remember that?

Re: Private stopthat_destro September 29 2011, 23:48:10 UTC

Yeah. I remember.

Re: Private creatingalegacy September 29 2011, 23:58:24 UTC

That's what I was thinking of. Not anything Hoffman did to me, or to John and Jill. What I did to Gideon.

[If this were audio or video she wouldn't even be able to discuss it.]

I'd never overdosed before, but between that night and when John selected me, it happened several times. Maybe I wanted to die, but then...John. He saved me.

Re: Private stopthat_destro September 30 2011, 01:13:46 UTC

Did he know?

Re: Private creatingalegacy September 30 2011, 01:21:23 UTC

I don't know. Fuck. I don't think so--I don't see how he could have forgiven me. I killed his child.

Whether he knew or not, thinking he didn't is why I died. Hoffman threatened to tell John about it, unless I disobeyed John's orders and killed a test subject who should have gone free. So, I did it. I shot Lynn after she performed a surgery to ease the pressure on John's brain, and then another test subject who'd just finished his games came in...and shot me. Lynn and Jeff were husband and wife. I hadn't known that.

Hoffman had. He'd known it all along.

Re: Private stopthat_destro September 30 2011, 01:22:55 UTC

Hoffman...

I hate him. He doesn't even deserve to be here.

Re: Private creatingalegacy September 30 2011, 01:33:41 UTC

He doesn't deserve a second chance, but neither do I. I already had mine, and I used that chance to break the moral code of the man who gave it to me.

That doesn't change the fact that I want him to hurt. I want to make the son of a bitch suffer for killing John and Jill, because even if I deserved to die, they didn't. I don't think anything I can do to him will ever be enough to punish him for that.

I cut him open and ripped his fucking guts out on the day he arrived. Even that wasn't enough.

Re: Private stopthat_destro September 30 2011, 02:39:52 UTC

You do deserve another chance. Being manipulated into something... He's to blame, not you. [REX LOVES HIM SOME BLAME SHIFTING.]

Re: Private creatingalegacy September 30 2011, 02:47:04 UTC

Lynn's wasn't the only murder I committed....just the only one Hoffman forced on me.

[Lynn didn't actually die from the gunshot wound--the device Amanda had built and locked around her neck went off and blew the good surgeon's head into an unrecognizable slurry before she could bleed out. So really, Amanda still pretty much killed her.]

I saw how he behaved when you called him out on what he did to Buffy. He's disgusting.

Private stopthat_destro September 30 2011, 02:53:12 UTC

Why did you do it?

He is. He's just like Dracula: jumping to make himself the victim of another person's traumatic experience. He actually cornered me in the shower, trying to threaten me into apologizing.

Re: Private creatingalegacy September 30 2011, 03:01:38 UTC

One of my test subjects was the man who locked me away for something I didn't do, turned me into an addict and ruined my life. He said something, and it broke me. I should have walked away, but I hated him too much, so I beat him until I thought he was dead...and it just felt so fucking good to take control that way. That was where it started.

I still don't regret what I did to him, or to any of my other victims. Like I told John before I died: I'm a murderer. I kept up a good front here, though, didn't I? Christ, I even started fooling myself.

[Thankfully, he can't see how concerned she is when he mentions Hoffman cornering him.]

How did you react?

Re: Private stopthat_destro September 30 2011, 03:28:18 UTC

He sounds like he deserved it. And there are other murderers here. I don't think you're any worse than them.

I punched him. Like I was going to apologize for calling a rapist what he is.

Re: Private creatingalegacy September 30 2011, 03:32:33 UTC

[There's another long pause.]

If he hurt you back, I need you to tell me exactly what he did.

Re: Private stopthat_destro September 30 2011, 03:35:08 UTC

I'm sure I hurt him worse than he did me. I doubt he'll be able to walk straight for a week. [Because Rex totally kicked him in the balls.]

He just punched me, hit my head against the floor, then punched the back of my skull. The fight was broken up before he could do anything else.

Re: Private creatingalegacy September 30 2011, 03:37:27 UTC

[There's a shorter pause. AMANDA IS WRITING THIS DOWN.]

It'll take longer than a week.

[Once she adds her own damage to Rex's total, anyway.]

Back to all threads