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i went to the hoffman game on thursday, it was so nice to see everyone, even the people i didnt like in highschool. i ended up going out to dinner with everyone and everything. i do love going out, but i hate not talking to sean, i just hate being out when i know hes at home just waiting. but it was still a good time. i couldnt get my car up a slight hill and huds said she would push it, well i didnt know she got out and i found the friction point and got up the hill lol and then i hear kristin go HUDAAA lol and turns out huds got out of the car..and i started to drive off sooo she was running after the car. lol good times. then at tgifridays, we told the waiter that it was huds bday and the loko on her face. omg she had NOO idea that they were coming to sing to her. it was funnier if you were there. i worked a ltot this week, it was fine though. saturday was huds last day at home. gosh do i miss her already. i got so used to her being home. sunday i went to my grandmas and we had a movie day with her. it was a really nice time. we watched the village, it was actually pretty good, theres a good twist if you havent seen it yet.
i feel sick to my stomach. i keep getting that feeling you get in the gut that just makes you sick. not like pukey fevery sick, but upset, worried sick. i cant seem to shake it. i pray for normalcy. i want so badly to just wake up every day and have something to look forward to, someone to look forward to. it will never get too hard to have someone you love so far away, but some days you just want to crawl in bed and stay there until its a better day. i feel my heart come up through my throat sometimes because i miss him so much. i wish that one day i wont have to miss him so much and that i can just smile and say see you later and not goodbye.
running is the best thing that can happen to a person. it seems like no matter what, i can just get on the track and go, and i feel a thousand times lighter when im finished. everything that upsets me or hurts me, runs aways.
i need a run like a druggie needs a hit.
i feel sick to my stomach. i keep getting that feeling you get in the gut that just makes you sick. not like pukey fevery sick, but upset, worried sick. i cant seem to shake it. i pray for normalcy. i want so badly to just wake up every day and have something to look forward to, someone to look forward to. it will never get too hard to have someone you love so far away, but some days you just want to crawl in bed and stay there until its a better day. i feel my heart come up through my throat sometimes because i miss him so much. i wish that one day i wont have to miss him so much and that i can just smile and say see you later and not goodbye.
running is the best thing that can happen to a person. it seems like no matter what, i can just get on the track and go, and i feel a thousand times lighter when im finished. everything that upsets me or hurts me, runs aways.
i need a run like a druggie needs a hit.