Everything on my mind.
In past eighteen years of my life if i've ever learned anything it's that there is such thing as too much kindness. I think that is my number one problem is that I care to much for the well being of my friends. I love to go out of my way to call someone even if I don't like them to make sure that everything is going well, because I hate when things go wrong for me and I know what it's like to feel like shit. Whenever I make the extra effort to check up on an old friend or lost love , their ego becomes them and all of the sudden I am a " the psycho ex or crazy codependent friend" I honestly could gift a shit weather or not they wanted to be my friend or be inttimate with me.
There is a difference between being friends and being civil, I'm not one to hold a grudge and I'm also not one to beg on my knees for someone to pay attention to me. Iam however human and I do get pissed but pissed or heartkbroken can only last so long, whats the point of being pissed forever?
I don't know where I'm going with this but I'm really tired and it's becoming a long week, I just wanted to check up on some old friends for the holidays and make sure everything was going well...
There is a difference between being friends and being civil, I'm not one to hold a grudge and I'm also not one to beg on my knees for someone to pay attention to me. Iam however human and I do get pissed but pissed or heartkbroken can only last so long, whats the point of being pissed forever?
I don't know where I'm going with this but I'm really tired and it's becoming a long week, I just wanted to check up on some old friends for the holidays and make sure everything was going well...