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[create_repair]

when faced with such a difficult decision
it becomes harder and harder to maintain a calm
sensible attitude.
im trapped in this world of self loathing and self doubt.
surrounded with thsoe making decisions daily
and sticking to them
and not turning back
and i feel as though i am one large conspiracy
ready to run at any moment
my worries are surrounding me and not even my writing is able to help.
it has lost meaning in so many ways.
when you get lost in the mundane you forget what is really important.

lost sight of self