My Happiness
Title: My happiness
Author: cream4me
Genre: angst, male/male
Band: EXO
Pairing: broken!SeKai, KaiSoo, HunHan
Rating: PG
Disclaimer:….
Summary: You gave me life
Warning: One cuss word -_-
“Hey babe…I have to work Yixing’s shift again tonight. I’ll be home just as soon as I can ok? See you when I get home. I LOVE YOU!” he yells into the phone.
“Ok I’ll be here when you get home. I love you too. Be safe.”
We hang up and since I have the day off I can catch up on some much needed sleep. But instead I do a little cleaning. It wouldn’t be fair to let him do all the housework himself.
I look around our apartment and I can see life again. It’s much brighter than it use to be. This place was once dead and cold but ever since I met him it’s been nothing but bright and warm.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I manage to get the dishes from last night done, the bathroom and tidied up the living room and I’m almost done cleaning our room when I come across and old picture hidden under the bed. It’s a bit dusty and faded but I can still make out the face. It’s me and…
Sehun
I didn’t think I’d ever find love after he left me…
That was three years ago
~FLASHBACK~
I know people don’t usually expect their boyfriend of how ever many months or years to cheat on them but I REALLY didn’t see this coming.
I come home from a long day of work expecting to find my love waiting for me by the door like usual, helping to get my coat and my shoes off. Putting my things away for me while I relax on the couch for a few minutes until dinner is ready.
No today was different. Today I walk into a dimly lit house with no love waiting for me by the door and no dinner on the stove. It doesn’t happen very often but you usually tell me in advance that you won’t be home and that dinner will be in the oven.
But there was no phone call or text message earlier nor is there food waiting for me in the oven. Nope not at all.
What is waiting for me though is the breathless sounds that escape from another man’s mouth as you slide in and out of his body. The look of sheer pleasure all over your face and not a single care in the world except for the guy in front of you.
“Sehun.”
Immediately the two of you freeze and you pull out. The another man with the baby face is now blushing and I would have found it cute had I not just walked in on you fucking him. Soon he finds his clothes and makes a beeline to the door. But not before muttering ’I’ll be in the car.’
Only when the door closes is when you make a move to get dressed.
“Why?”
“We had drifted apart a long time ago Jongin…Don’t tell me you didn’t notice. You’re either always at work or sleep. You never have time for me anymore. I’m lonely Jonginnie and you never even noticed. I mean…Look around you Jongin and tell me what you see.”
I do as I’m told and as I look around I see that all of Sehun’s things are no longer scattered around the room. I go to his drawers and see that they are empty as is his side of the closet. How did I not notice this?!
“I’m sorry.” I say with my head down
“I know…I am too but--”
“Please don’t leave me Sehun…you’re all I’ve got and I can’t bear the thought of coming home and you aren’t here. Please don’t leave me Sehun please!” I say crying
“I’m sorry but I can’t stay here with you anymore. I’m moving to China…To be with him.”
I look up at him and see him leaving the room and out to the living room. All his things are packed up in the corner of the room and a few suitcases by the door.
How could I not see this?!
“Sehun please…we can make it work! Please don’t leave me.”
You smile a sad smile and grab the handle of the door and suitcase. I’m sorry Jongin. I really did love you but it just wasn’t enough. You will find love again and I hope that when you do you hold onto it.” he says walking over to me.
I want to grab him and make him stay but I can’t even move my pinky finger right now. This is happening way too fast and I don’t even know if I’m dreaming or not but I sure as hell would like to wake up now. I feel you kiss my forehead and I have just enough strength to look you in the eyes.
What I see breaks me down to my very core. Your eyes are tinged pink with unshed tears in your eyes. I see hurt, pain, betrayal, but most of all I see that you look tired.
So very tired. Like you’ve lost all the fight in you. And it’s all my fault.
“Please be happy without me Jongin. And don’t cry over me…we had a good run…Two long beautiful wonderful years and I thank you very much for them but the love has died.”
Memories of the past two years flash right before my eyes and I see a time when we were nothing but smiles. We were fresh out of college and broke as hell but it was ok because we had each other. We went through too much hell in high water from both our families for it all to be waster like this. We were gonna get married, have kids and grow old together. It just can’t end like this. It can’t!
“It hasn’t.” I say as I try to force the lump down my throat.
And again you smile that sad smile.
“And that’s why I have to leave…You can’t even see how broken we are. Goodbye Jongin.”
END FLASHBACK
~~~~~~~~~
I don’t even hear the door unlock or see you walk in until I feel your arms wrap around my waist and I can’t help but jump in surprise. You laugh.
“Hey babe.” you say kissing me.
“Not that I’m not happy you’re home but what are you doing here? I thought you had to cover for Yixing.”
“I had just walked in when they called and told me he had shown up so I’m off the hook. We get to spend the whole day together! Isn’t that great?!”
And it is great. Because I don’t like being away from you. Not even for a second.
“Hey what are you looking at? What’s that?” you ask
“Oh nothing. Just an old photo.”
“Hey I know that guy!” he says snatching the picture. “It’s Sehun! He was sitting in the emergency room. His kid broke a finger.”
Sehun has…a kid?
“Was there…anyone else with him?” I ask before I can even catch myself.
“Yea actually. This really cute blond guy with big doe eyes. Luhan I think is his name. He reminds me of a deer.” he says laughing. “How do you know him?”
“He’s the ex I told you about. Luhan is the guy he left me for.”
“Oh”
Of course he knows all about Sehun and our relationship. I couldn’t keep something like that from him. He was the one who brought me out of that dark period of my life and helped me start over.
“I’m glad he’s happy. He got the family he wanted. Good for them.” I say with a smile on my face.
“Yeah…Jongin-ah…are you happy?” he says with those big owlish eyes.
I look at him and I can’t help but break out into a big smile. If I ever see Sehun again I’ll be sure to thank him from the bottom of my heart. Because of him I was able to find my love…And I’ll never let it go
“I’ve never been happier. ” I say embracing him.
FIN~~
Author: cream4me
Genre: angst, male/male
Band: EXO
Pairing: broken!SeKai, KaiSoo, HunHan
Rating: PG
Disclaimer:….
Summary: You gave me life
Warning: One cuss word -_-
“Hey babe…I have to work Yixing’s shift again tonight. I’ll be home just as soon as I can ok? See you when I get home. I LOVE YOU!” he yells into the phone.
“Ok I’ll be here when you get home. I love you too. Be safe.”
We hang up and since I have the day off I can catch up on some much needed sleep. But instead I do a little cleaning. It wouldn’t be fair to let him do all the housework himself.
I look around our apartment and I can see life again. It’s much brighter than it use to be. This place was once dead and cold but ever since I met him it’s been nothing but bright and warm.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I manage to get the dishes from last night done, the bathroom and tidied up the living room and I’m almost done cleaning our room when I come across and old picture hidden under the bed. It’s a bit dusty and faded but I can still make out the face. It’s me and…
Sehun
I didn’t think I’d ever find love after he left me…
That was three years ago
~FLASHBACK~
I know people don’t usually expect their boyfriend of how ever many months or years to cheat on them but I REALLY didn’t see this coming.
I come home from a long day of work expecting to find my love waiting for me by the door like usual, helping to get my coat and my shoes off. Putting my things away for me while I relax on the couch for a few minutes until dinner is ready.
No today was different. Today I walk into a dimly lit house with no love waiting for me by the door and no dinner on the stove. It doesn’t happen very often but you usually tell me in advance that you won’t be home and that dinner will be in the oven.
But there was no phone call or text message earlier nor is there food waiting for me in the oven. Nope not at all.
What is waiting for me though is the breathless sounds that escape from another man’s mouth as you slide in and out of his body. The look of sheer pleasure all over your face and not a single care in the world except for the guy in front of you.
“Sehun.”
Immediately the two of you freeze and you pull out. The another man with the baby face is now blushing and I would have found it cute had I not just walked in on you fucking him. Soon he finds his clothes and makes a beeline to the door. But not before muttering ’I’ll be in the car.’
Only when the door closes is when you make a move to get dressed.
“Why?”
“We had drifted apart a long time ago Jongin…Don’t tell me you didn’t notice. You’re either always at work or sleep. You never have time for me anymore. I’m lonely Jonginnie and you never even noticed. I mean…Look around you Jongin and tell me what you see.”
I do as I’m told and as I look around I see that all of Sehun’s things are no longer scattered around the room. I go to his drawers and see that they are empty as is his side of the closet. How did I not notice this?!
“I’m sorry.” I say with my head down
“I know…I am too but--”
“Please don’t leave me Sehun…you’re all I’ve got and I can’t bear the thought of coming home and you aren’t here. Please don’t leave me Sehun please!” I say crying
“I’m sorry but I can’t stay here with you anymore. I’m moving to China…To be with him.”
I look up at him and see him leaving the room and out to the living room. All his things are packed up in the corner of the room and a few suitcases by the door.
How could I not see this?!
“Sehun please…we can make it work! Please don’t leave me.”
You smile a sad smile and grab the handle of the door and suitcase. I’m sorry Jongin. I really did love you but it just wasn’t enough. You will find love again and I hope that when you do you hold onto it.” he says walking over to me.
I want to grab him and make him stay but I can’t even move my pinky finger right now. This is happening way too fast and I don’t even know if I’m dreaming or not but I sure as hell would like to wake up now. I feel you kiss my forehead and I have just enough strength to look you in the eyes.
What I see breaks me down to my very core. Your eyes are tinged pink with unshed tears in your eyes. I see hurt, pain, betrayal, but most of all I see that you look tired.
So very tired. Like you’ve lost all the fight in you. And it’s all my fault.
“Please be happy without me Jongin. And don’t cry over me…we had a good run…Two long beautiful wonderful years and I thank you very much for them but the love has died.”
Memories of the past two years flash right before my eyes and I see a time when we were nothing but smiles. We were fresh out of college and broke as hell but it was ok because we had each other. We went through too much hell in high water from both our families for it all to be waster like this. We were gonna get married, have kids and grow old together. It just can’t end like this. It can’t!
“It hasn’t.” I say as I try to force the lump down my throat.
And again you smile that sad smile.
“And that’s why I have to leave…You can’t even see how broken we are. Goodbye Jongin.”
END FLASHBACK
~~~~~~~~~
I don’t even hear the door unlock or see you walk in until I feel your arms wrap around my waist and I can’t help but jump in surprise. You laugh.
“Hey babe.” you say kissing me.
“Not that I’m not happy you’re home but what are you doing here? I thought you had to cover for Yixing.”
“I had just walked in when they called and told me he had shown up so I’m off the hook. We get to spend the whole day together! Isn’t that great?!”
And it is great. Because I don’t like being away from you. Not even for a second.
“Hey what are you looking at? What’s that?” you ask
“Oh nothing. Just an old photo.”
“Hey I know that guy!” he says snatching the picture. “It’s Sehun! He was sitting in the emergency room. His kid broke a finger.”
Sehun has…a kid?
“Was there…anyone else with him?” I ask before I can even catch myself.
“Yea actually. This really cute blond guy with big doe eyes. Luhan I think is his name. He reminds me of a deer.” he says laughing. “How do you know him?”
“He’s the ex I told you about. Luhan is the guy he left me for.”
“Oh”
Of course he knows all about Sehun and our relationship. I couldn’t keep something like that from him. He was the one who brought me out of that dark period of my life and helped me start over.
“I’m glad he’s happy. He got the family he wanted. Good for them.” I say with a smile on my face.
“Yeah…Jongin-ah…are you happy?” he says with those big owlish eyes.
I look at him and I can’t help but break out into a big smile. If I ever see Sehun again I’ll be sure to thank him from the bottom of my heart. Because of him I was able to find my love…And I’ll never let it go
“I’ve never been happier. ” I say embracing him.
FIN~~