When life gets you down...
I am angry... and I know I shouldn't be. And then when I realize I shoudln't be angry... I feel extremely guilty and awful.
And I dont want to go home. home is where everything is. Home used to be my comfort... but now im afraid of it. Everything that tugs at me... pulls at me... and haunts my brain is from home. It's one thing or another. I will feel like I am running if I don't go home though... and running will do me no good.
People say that I "left them behind" that I'm "living my life without them in it" ..... but don't you think its the same for me? While I'm here living my life.. and taking all the opportunities I can... you are all living together at home. You all do things with out me now... say things that I dont know about... I am out of YOUR loop just as much as you are out of mine. I'm not saying I'm not to blame... but I just don't think its fair to place blame.
I just want to enjoy this whole college thing. How can I be in the lives of the people I love the same way as I used to be when i am now hours away from them? Everything changed. Everything has changed... and no matter what that would have happened. Things can't stay the same when hours of distance are put between you.
When will this nightmare end?
And I dont want to go home. home is where everything is. Home used to be my comfort... but now im afraid of it. Everything that tugs at me... pulls at me... and haunts my brain is from home. It's one thing or another. I will feel like I am running if I don't go home though... and running will do me no good.
People say that I "left them behind" that I'm "living my life without them in it" ..... but don't you think its the same for me? While I'm here living my life.. and taking all the opportunities I can... you are all living together at home. You all do things with out me now... say things that I dont know about... I am out of YOUR loop just as much as you are out of mine. I'm not saying I'm not to blame... but I just don't think its fair to place blame.
I just want to enjoy this whole college thing. How can I be in the lives of the people I love the same way as I used to be when i am now hours away from them? Everything changed. Everything has changed... and no matter what that would have happened. Things can't stay the same when hours of distance are put between you.
When will this nightmare end?