i hate the way he looks in that sweater.
Well... I havn't written in here in a long long long long time... but.... I guess it really doesn't matter. I definitly am a stress-case. Between my serious boy problems and school work like crazy, and a messy room too boot.
I am glad I smile so much. Smiling is the one thing I can do that even when I'm sad it will hide it from people I dont want to know about how bad I hurt and it brightens me up. Smiling and laughing is what I want to be known for. I'm glad here at college I'm known for being the "happy girl." I'm really glad I made friends too. Part of me was scared after about the first week or so that I would never fit in anywhere... now I have good friends that arn't from my hometown. I even have people that I'm planning to live with next year... i loveeee them.
Dancing is going good. I really enjoy it.
I cried while reading an email today... I don't usually cry at emails... it was wierd.
I hate feeling like I don't know what to do with myself about things. How on earth do I feel? No one but me can answer that question... and I wish they could. I know that I can't really just tell anyone anything about how I feel... because pouring my heart out will just make me feel incapable of handling something that I have to handle on my own... Its not just that either... I dont want how I feel to be real. It just makes no sense how I feel. Everything is confusing and mixed up and I feel lost at times. Lately I have just been going off into la la land and imagining things that i shouldn't.
I am glad I smile so much. Smiling is the one thing I can do that even when I'm sad it will hide it from people I dont want to know about how bad I hurt and it brightens me up. Smiling and laughing is what I want to be known for. I'm glad here at college I'm known for being the "happy girl." I'm really glad I made friends too. Part of me was scared after about the first week or so that I would never fit in anywhere... now I have good friends that arn't from my hometown. I even have people that I'm planning to live with next year... i loveeee them.
Dancing is going good. I really enjoy it.
I cried while reading an email today... I don't usually cry at emails... it was wierd.
I hate feeling like I don't know what to do with myself about things. How on earth do I feel? No one but me can answer that question... and I wish they could. I know that I can't really just tell anyone anything about how I feel... because pouring my heart out will just make me feel incapable of handling something that I have to handle on my own... Its not just that either... I dont want how I feel to be real. It just makes no sense how I feel. Everything is confusing and mixed up and I feel lost at times. Lately I have just been going off into la la land and imagining things that i shouldn't.