bored out of my mind...
Well, life is the same, as usual. I'm completely bored with everything at the moment. It happens once in a while. I just get bored all of a sudden and don't now how to fix it. It just doesn't excite me anymore... the same old people... being the same old way... doing the same old things. I see how people could easily turn to drugs and drinking, it probably makes people feel like they are "unboring" and "fun" and having a grand old time. I see it as a one way road to a big mess. I still understand it sometimes though. I imagin my life, if i was into all that "teen nonsense." And I assume it would be a definite change of pace. Its not worth what I would be giving up though, thats what people who turn to that junk don't realize. How much you really have to give up to make life exciting. I suppose change is in store for me, so its a good thing that change is well on its way. heading off to college... that should spice things up a bit. For the mean time I'm just living in my patheticness of a world... dying for excitement without the problems it would inevitably bring along. I'm sure there are things I could do... become more open... talk to random people...
but look at me.. do I really seem like I would do that?
No... i don't. I know I don't. I stare in a mirror that shows both my sides... but only when I look into it. If I had it my way... I would make my own clothing, I would wear all that "punk" stuff... jump in moshpits, crowdsurf, live on the EdgE. Too bad i was raised so well. I'm too smart, and I know it. No one could hold me back if I decided to do such things. I can do whatever I want... and I know it. I keep MYSELF from doing stupid things... blessing or a curse? who knows. I know one things though, I never gave my parents much trouble in the teen issues department... sometimes I almost wish I did... just so I had SOMETHING that arroused peoples attention.
No one even asks how I really am anymore. I guess people just assume. It's not like I ever change.
Too bad people can't see change is always going on.... and too bad people can't see that plain and simple truth.
I love how people try to hide truth... act like the change never happened... hoping it will reverse itself. Life is always in motion... people don't realize that no matter what... you can never run faster than it.
Well.. I might as well cut the poor me rutine.
Act 2 is coming up, and I guess that is when the problem gets resolved...
or maybe it was worsened...
but look at me.. do I really seem like I would do that?
No... i don't. I know I don't. I stare in a mirror that shows both my sides... but only when I look into it. If I had it my way... I would make my own clothing, I would wear all that "punk" stuff... jump in moshpits, crowdsurf, live on the EdgE. Too bad i was raised so well. I'm too smart, and I know it. No one could hold me back if I decided to do such things. I can do whatever I want... and I know it. I keep MYSELF from doing stupid things... blessing or a curse? who knows. I know one things though, I never gave my parents much trouble in the teen issues department... sometimes I almost wish I did... just so I had SOMETHING that arroused peoples attention.
No one even asks how I really am anymore. I guess people just assume. It's not like I ever change.
Too bad people can't see change is always going on.... and too bad people can't see that plain and simple truth.
I love how people try to hide truth... act like the change never happened... hoping it will reverse itself. Life is always in motion... people don't realize that no matter what... you can never run faster than it.
Well.. I might as well cut the poor me rutine.
Act 2 is coming up, and I guess that is when the problem gets resolved...
or maybe it was worsened...