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[crazzieladie]

so here is another dull lunch with my some-times dull boyfriend who dully discusses with a dull skiba about this huge drug deal they are making. ok good for them. and then mike saw i wasnt exactly happy about the whole thing and was very surprised that i declined to go to the mall and have him spend all of the money he "earned" through drug dealing on me. yeah ok. i want no part in this. i told him that if we go to the mall i dont want him spending that money on me. sometimes he drives me crazy. not because he is anoying or something like that but because i worry about him too much and he doesnt get it. i mean i know this isnt a big deal to most people and maybe i am just mad at myself for putting myself in this position. i mean i never thought my friends would be like this in 10 years or whatever. and dont get me wrong they are so much fun and i love them its just somtimes i regret changing who i was. idk. i dotn know what to do. grrrr. frustration. so far this year has been one of the most complicated in my life.

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

yet happyness...