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okay well.....i sorta got a slap in the face today. not really but hear me out.
seeing as how me and my mom haven't talked since like begin of feb. i pretty much figured that its stupid to hold shit against people. i mean you never know if your going to see tomorrow.Its really stupid because when i was in the hospital i made myself all theses promises about how im not going to hold things against people.As soon as i got out i somewhat went back to myself. i was just soo angry from then atill i sprained my ankle. After i sprained my ankle i had time to rest and think about whats really going on with me. Why i was soo messed up and everything.how i took out alot of stuff on my friends molly.jones & stace. they were the 3 out of the 4 people that really helped me. i couldn't understand why i wasn't talking to them. they pretty where my angels along with tiffany that watched over me and made sure i was always telling the truth about my feelings. Tiffany has always been there for me. shes always made sure my head was on straight since 8th grade. and the one day i couldn't tell her what was wrong. i know i really hurt her and it was like a punch in the face to her because i o her everything. Along with stace b4 xmas i was soo mad at her for everything and i took everything out on her. it was never staces fault. i took it out on the wrong people. i myself was the only one to blame. i was blameing people for my own actions. while i was at the hospital it made me realize how lucky i am to have such a great family and a great group of friends. things are soo crazy i don't know how i got soo out of control. i went to the wrong things for help. i mean come on i turned to sitting in my room and drinking while crying cause i was soo upset. then passing out no1 ever knowning i did that. i mean thats not me at all. im soo happy great friends and my family that cares about me. yeah i get mad at them my brothers the most but there the people that care about me the most.its really weird how to take all your frustrates and angery out on the people you love the most and dont' even realize that your hurting soo many people. You really don't know what you have till you loose it. Im soo thankful that i have people that cared about me. but the thing im most upset about is that now 3 months later im just realizing how everything happened i o alot of people sorrys and just like a big ass hug for putting up with everything and being soo upset about myself and everything going on.
Tiffany,molly,jones,stace id pretty much be lost without them they were always there for me all in different ways thanks you guys for everything.im really sorry i waited till now to realize all this stuff. i have alot more to say but my brother wants to go on. ill write tomorrow just to make sure nothing has changed.
seeing as how me and my mom haven't talked since like begin of feb. i pretty much figured that its stupid to hold shit against people. i mean you never know if your going to see tomorrow.Its really stupid because when i was in the hospital i made myself all theses promises about how im not going to hold things against people.As soon as i got out i somewhat went back to myself. i was just soo angry from then atill i sprained my ankle. After i sprained my ankle i had time to rest and think about whats really going on with me. Why i was soo messed up and everything.how i took out alot of stuff on my friends molly.jones & stace. they were the 3 out of the 4 people that really helped me. i couldn't understand why i wasn't talking to them. they pretty where my angels along with tiffany that watched over me and made sure i was always telling the truth about my feelings. Tiffany has always been there for me. shes always made sure my head was on straight since 8th grade. and the one day i couldn't tell her what was wrong. i know i really hurt her and it was like a punch in the face to her because i o her everything. Along with stace b4 xmas i was soo mad at her for everything and i took everything out on her. it was never staces fault. i took it out on the wrong people. i myself was the only one to blame. i was blameing people for my own actions. while i was at the hospital it made me realize how lucky i am to have such a great family and a great group of friends. things are soo crazy i don't know how i got soo out of control. i went to the wrong things for help. i mean come on i turned to sitting in my room and drinking while crying cause i was soo upset. then passing out no1 ever knowning i did that. i mean thats not me at all. im soo happy great friends and my family that cares about me. yeah i get mad at them my brothers the most but there the people that care about me the most.its really weird how to take all your frustrates and angery out on the people you love the most and dont' even realize that your hurting soo many people. You really don't know what you have till you loose it. Im soo thankful that i have people that cared about me. but the thing im most upset about is that now 3 months later im just realizing how everything happened i o alot of people sorrys and just like a big ass hug for putting up with everything and being soo upset about myself and everything going on.
Tiffany,molly,jones,stace id pretty much be lost without them they were always there for me all in different ways thanks you guys for everything.im really sorry i waited till now to realize all this stuff. i have alot more to say but my brother wants to go on. ill write tomorrow just to make sure nothing has changed.