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Ok I'm gonna copy this after I write it just cuz I might get fucked over again. Dammit I don't even remember what I wrote but both times were pretty long updates! *shakes fist*
So today I woke up at like 6AM all hyper singing Primus' "Too Many Puppies" cuz Jess has 3 dogs that were all jumpin around and I was already in a great giddy mood from all the hot sex we had all night into the morning :blush: Yes my dry spell has ended!! Holy crap, I don't wanna get into details because I need to calm down and go to bed soon. Seriously tho, wow. :love: I hope he didn't just wanna hit it and quit it cuz I think I will be disappointed with anyone I have sex with besides him from now on lol. :love: :love: :love: :love: :love:
So besides that, my mom was being a major cunt all day and fucking pissing me off. I swept and Swiffer'd the kitchen floor then she IM'd me saying how dirty it was. WTF?!? She was like "I just got a rag and washed the whole floor all over again. Then she wanted me to Swiffer it again. SERIOUSLY OMGWTFBBQ?!?!? :mad: So I did listening to my iPod, btw Foreigner's Juke Box Hero is a good song to Swiffer to :P anyways she finally told me the floor looked beautiful so I pleased the evil queen :whatever:
I have an appt. with my psych in the morning cuz I missed 3 days of work getting drunk. We'll call that an "episode". Plus I've been hurting myself a lot on purpose lately because of fucking rage and agitation. Not like wah wah emo cutting I cut myself to feel alive bullshit, just I dunno it helps when I'm fucking mad. And I'm just weird like that and like pain. So I've been taking a lot of extra xanax to fucking deal with all the bullshit around me. I think I'll make it all dramatic when I go to work and say I tried to kill myself and put bandages around my wrists just so people don't fuck with me. I'm bored there anyways and haven't pretended in a while.
fin.
What is an emotion between like and love that isn't lust? I am in like with a boy, I think I love him but I know it's too soon. I don't wanna just fuck him (I do but not just that), I like him dearly more than anyone I know at the moment. So help kthxbye <3
So today I woke up at like 6AM all hyper singing Primus' "Too Many Puppies" cuz Jess has 3 dogs that were all jumpin around and I was already in a great giddy mood from all the hot sex we had all night into the morning :blush: Yes my dry spell has ended!! Holy crap, I don't wanna get into details because I need to calm down and go to bed soon. Seriously tho, wow. :love: I hope he didn't just wanna hit it and quit it cuz I think I will be disappointed with anyone I have sex with besides him from now on lol. :love: :love: :love: :love: :love:
So besides that, my mom was being a major cunt all day and fucking pissing me off. I swept and Swiffer'd the kitchen floor then she IM'd me saying how dirty it was. WTF?!? She was like "I just got a rag and washed the whole floor all over again. Then she wanted me to Swiffer it again. SERIOUSLY OMGWTFBBQ?!?!? :mad: So I did listening to my iPod, btw Foreigner's Juke Box Hero is a good song to Swiffer to :P anyways she finally told me the floor looked beautiful so I pleased the evil queen :whatever:
I have an appt. with my psych in the morning cuz I missed 3 days of work getting drunk. We'll call that an "episode". Plus I've been hurting myself a lot on purpose lately because of fucking rage and agitation. Not like wah wah emo cutting I cut myself to feel alive bullshit, just I dunno it helps when I'm fucking mad. And I'm just weird like that and like pain. So I've been taking a lot of extra xanax to fucking deal with all the bullshit around me. I think I'll make it all dramatic when I go to work and say I tried to kill myself and put bandages around my wrists just so people don't fuck with me. I'm bored there anyways and haven't pretended in a while.
fin.
What is an emotion between like and love that isn't lust? I am in like with a boy, I think I love him but I know it's too soon. I don't wanna just fuck him (I do but not just that), I like him dearly more than anyone I know at the moment. So help kthxbye <3