"we can share our endorphins"
Wow. What can i saw? I'm exhaused. Honestly i'm exhausted. Tried way way wayyyyy to hard wayyy to soon and i'm just exhausted. you know? Its been hard to breathe, hard to think, and its just an accumlation of shit that i don't feel like sharing. On top of this i find out the guy i've started to fall for has a girlfriend. And...and that just adds to it all. Its rather petty, i know but it still makes me wanna choke myself.
I respect my mother...but its my step-dad. ugh. i cannot stand him about 80% of the time. I mean Charlotte is an okay place but i can't stand the life i have here. Its so stressed out and full of stupid emo (i hate emo) drama (i hate drama). This aggrevates me cuz i want to be happy here...but i cannot help but think about just giving in and moving back with my dad. Be with my dad and other people that have known me most of my life (both allies, rachel, and most of my family). I offically have the right to be wheverever i chose now.
On the flip side...there are people i've met in Charlotte that i love dearly as well. Over the past few years, Lauren and David have become 2 of my 3 best friends. The other one is Allie and yeah shes lives in California. Its just--i dont know. i'm a lil' torn up right now. My relationship with myself neeeeeds to be improved on (according to Cosmopolitain magazine...long story, don't ask haha).
I don't know what to do. Whatever my desicion is, I have to make it quickly. I'm just a little torn up right now, and i'm sorry.
Love,
Gina...