this is new.
after the monsoon we had here last week I lost power in my apartment and I still had work to do for my final the next day so guess whos place I had to go over?????? yeah. his. THE most awkward moment of my ENTIRE life. then my car wouldn't start since the engine flooded and I had to stay there. I just wanted to die.
So - we're friends. I forced him to have the "are we friends, friends with benefits, or strangers now?" talk the next morning. We're friends. Which is exactly what I want. He said he didn't want to be emotionally attatched to anyone when he leaves, which I completely understand since he'll be so far away. And "being affectionate" would incorporate those feelings. And I don't need that either. I honestly expected us to part ways just as "friends" but since he's leaving at the end of June I really just expected him to never talk to me again, but I was ok with that. I just wanted to know we're friends in case I ran into him around Salisbury cuz it would be OH so strange haha.
He IMd me Friday just basically saying hi and that was it. It didn't bother me but - just stuck in my head for the day. It was actually nice to hear from him. So Saturday I was sitting in my living room reading my book (The Cinderella Rules. so cute. read it.) and my phone rings. Apparently I forgot to change his ringtone cuz I launched myself off the papsan when I heard his song. I looked at Sara and she looked at me with the same confused face cuz she knew it was him too. I answered with a perplexed and drawn out Hello????? and he was immedietaly the boy that I fell for. The goofy, funny and crazy guy that he was when things between us were amazing. I immeditaley turned into a little school girl and couldn't stop giggling at how ridiculous he was being. He said that I had to be at his place in 20 minutes to go have lunch with him and proceeded to IM me telling me to hurry up while I was getting changed. Exactly how he acted while we were talking. So.. we go to lunch. And I for some reason forgot how attractive he is. I couldn't stop staring at him while we were eating. ugh. so we get back to his place and I walk to my car and he walks up to his place and he goes "you're leaving?" and i was like well.... you have work in an hour. and he goes oh.. right.. and then waved and walked away. confusing. i really just wanted to run over to him and tackle the shit out of him or at least just grab his face and kiss him. uggghh.
so fast forward a good 8 hours later. i hear his ringtone again. he called to just rub it in my face some more than he already did at lunch that he was going to Busch Gardens today and tell me his entire itinerary for that night and the next day. i know we're friends and friends do that kind of thing... i guess - but why is he thinking about me so much lately?
i dunno. i LOVE being around him - he's so much fun and just absolutely hysterical so i don't want to stop hanging out with him. and it's not weird to talk to him or be with him. but he has to see the way i look at him still. and he has to know that i still catch him staring at me. i dunno. i can't say anything is going to happen cuz it probably won't since we both know it's a bad idea but - lord knows i want it to. maybe. i dunno - all i know is that i'm sure as hell not used to having a civil break up. we'll see how the month of June plays out.
So - we're friends. I forced him to have the "are we friends, friends with benefits, or strangers now?" talk the next morning. We're friends. Which is exactly what I want. He said he didn't want to be emotionally attatched to anyone when he leaves, which I completely understand since he'll be so far away. And "being affectionate" would incorporate those feelings. And I don't need that either. I honestly expected us to part ways just as "friends" but since he's leaving at the end of June I really just expected him to never talk to me again, but I was ok with that. I just wanted to know we're friends in case I ran into him around Salisbury cuz it would be OH so strange haha.
He IMd me Friday just basically saying hi and that was it. It didn't bother me but - just stuck in my head for the day. It was actually nice to hear from him. So Saturday I was sitting in my living room reading my book (The Cinderella Rules. so cute. read it.) and my phone rings. Apparently I forgot to change his ringtone cuz I launched myself off the papsan when I heard his song. I looked at Sara and she looked at me with the same confused face cuz she knew it was him too. I answered with a perplexed and drawn out Hello????? and he was immedietaly the boy that I fell for. The goofy, funny and crazy guy that he was when things between us were amazing. I immeditaley turned into a little school girl and couldn't stop giggling at how ridiculous he was being. He said that I had to be at his place in 20 minutes to go have lunch with him and proceeded to IM me telling me to hurry up while I was getting changed. Exactly how he acted while we were talking. So.. we go to lunch. And I for some reason forgot how attractive he is. I couldn't stop staring at him while we were eating. ugh. so we get back to his place and I walk to my car and he walks up to his place and he goes "you're leaving?" and i was like well.... you have work in an hour. and he goes oh.. right.. and then waved and walked away. confusing. i really just wanted to run over to him and tackle the shit out of him or at least just grab his face and kiss him. uggghh.
so fast forward a good 8 hours later. i hear his ringtone again. he called to just rub it in my face some more than he already did at lunch that he was going to Busch Gardens today and tell me his entire itinerary for that night and the next day. i know we're friends and friends do that kind of thing... i guess - but why is he thinking about me so much lately?
i dunno. i LOVE being around him - he's so much fun and just absolutely hysterical so i don't want to stop hanging out with him. and it's not weird to talk to him or be with him. but he has to see the way i look at him still. and he has to know that i still catch him staring at me. i dunno. i can't say anything is going to happen cuz it probably won't since we both know it's a bad idea but - lord knows i want it to. maybe. i dunno - all i know is that i'm sure as hell not used to having a civil break up. we'll see how the month of June plays out.