May 08, 2005 17:29
So I just took the "Geek test" that everyone in the theatre department has been yakking about for days. And I only scored a 6.1%, tied for the lowest in the department. I can't believe that I am that little of a geek when I feel so inept all the time, saying the wrong things to the wrong people and never handling things smoothly the way I see other people do all the time. I feel like this big mess of obnoxious nerves that never knows when to stop or when to go. I'm so confused all the time; wanting things I can't have, acting out when I should stay still, saying things I shouldn't and staying silent when I know I should speak. To those who have been affected negatively by my awkwardness, I truly apologize. Know that my intentions are good even when I am at my most spastic...
P.S. I'd punch her in her fucking face if I didn't think it might improve her looks.