This shit needs to stop...
I don't even know where to begin. I am so fuckin pissed off right now and I don't care who knows it. I am so sick of all this shit. It needs to fucking stop now. This constant battle between people needs to stop. People need to let things go. This situation has finally gone too far. Somebody crossed the line from being bitchy to just plain being... I dont even know what to call it. If you have a problem with somebody you go up to their face and you discuss it with them, you call a counsler, you go to peer fucking mediation but this is going too far. I am not the kind of person that gets involved in conflict. It takes a lot to piss me off this badly. I hate this. I'm involved now and I don't give a shit. This year has been pure Hell between people. There is always some form of drama (overused, I know) or conflict. What the hell happened to last year when everyone was friends? Have we all changed that much? The answer is no. There are still plently of people that get along. But then there are other people where there is always conflict involved. No matter who starts it there is always some form of shit. I'm so tense right now. I just have this urge to go start screaming at people but I wont. Thats what this journal is for. I can bitch and yell as much as I want to and there aint shit people can do about it. If you have a problem with anything I say then you can fucking stop reading it. I want to go back to Freshman and Sophomore years where everything was good. Maybe the people that I thought were my friends back then really weren't but at least I didn't know about it. Ignorance really is bliss, that is something I have learned this year. This crap between people is going to end and it is going to end now. I have too much other shit that is stressing me out on top of this. I can't take much more of this before I just go nuts and start screaming at everyone. I know I seem to be repeating the same thing over and over again but I don't care. I'm not gonna hide what I feel about this whole situation. I have spent the year giving people the benifit of the doubt. My mother taught me that most people are good and Ive tried to think about that. Whenever somebody pisses me off, I keep my mouth shut and let it go but not anymore. That doesnt appear to be working for me. If you want to know how I feel about all this shit then come up and ask me because Im done with keeping my mouth shut. As for last night and tonight, I dont know who did it. There are people that I suspect did it or could have done it but I don't know for sure and I won't lay blame until I do. But whoever did it can be damn sure that they will be found out. That is one thing I do know. Well venting in this journal entry hasn't really made me feel any better so I think that I am just gonna stop for awhile and update later when I am in a calmer mood.