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So I never write in here anymore...but I'm writing a sad entry today about how I'm leaving for Tennessee. That's not the sad part...I got my dream job - elephant keeper at the Knoxville Zoo. The sad part is, is that I'm leaving behind friends, family and the ones I really care about and love. I can't help but cry everytime I think about leaving. It's so hard. I've never had to do this before...there was always some sort of feeling that I'd come back...but my new job is permanent, aside from holidays, am i ever coming back? :(
The hardest part of all this is leaving my boyfriend. I know, it sounds so cliche, but really...he has become my best friend and the person I confide in. Ugh, why else would i be posting this online? I can't even talk to him because he wants me to go and he thinks its stupid that I'm crying about leaving him. Sometimes I think that I deserve someone that cares about me just as much as I care about them. He's not the outwardly emotional type, AT ALL! :( I dunno what to do, all I want to do is see him and hold him for one last time. I know they say it might be easier to leave someone you love, when you're fighting, but really, it breaks my heart even more :( ugh...
The hardest part of all this is leaving my boyfriend. I know, it sounds so cliche, but really...he has become my best friend and the person I confide in. Ugh, why else would i be posting this online? I can't even talk to him because he wants me to go and he thinks its stupid that I'm crying about leaving him. Sometimes I think that I deserve someone that cares about me just as much as I care about them. He's not the outwardly emotional type, AT ALL! :( I dunno what to do, all I want to do is see him and hold him for one last time. I know they say it might be easier to leave someone you love, when you're fighting, but really, it breaks my heart even more :( ugh...