I really dont like Valentine's Day
So today is the most hated day of the year for me....Valentine's Day. It is literally the most over rated day. It doesn't matter if I am attached or single on this day. Never been a fan and never will be. It is a money making scam, period. Love should be shown throughout the year not just one stupid day that society has set aside. I have received a few of those child-like Valentines and I find it cute, but thats about it.
I am not a fan of men right now, so I couldn't care less that I don't have a Valentine again this year. I am so tired of getting hurt. Just when I start to feel comfortable I get really hurt and it sucks. I have built major walls around myself, especially anything having to do with relationships. Been hurt waaay too many times and tired of it. So recently I found someone of interest that totally blew up in my face. We were spending a lot of time together, but neither of us really wanted a relationship and we both agreed on this. Well then a curve ball was thrown into this. The L word was thrown into this and not by me either. That put things on a total different playing field. I was so confused. Then a couple weeks later he told me that he really cared for me and wanted to be with me, but couldn't be with me. What kind of crap is that? I still get angry thinking about that night. I wanted to punch him in the face right then and there, but I didnt. If he didnt want to be with me, thats fine, but only a few weeks prior he used the freaking L word. Not cool in my book, at all. Who freaking does that?
I still think about him all the time and it sucks. I can honestly say I really miss him and it sucks.
Then theres someone on the total opposite end of the spectrum. This friend of mine really likes me. Hasn't told me but actions speak louder than words. He is a great guy, but I do not see him more than a friend and never will. He is fun to hang out with, but he has a lot of growing up to do. He is older than me, but is not mature at all. He keeps asking me to go out to eat and the movies and stuff and I've tried to drop hints that Im not interested on any level but friendship, but its not working. I am going to have to be blunt soon, because I don't want him to think there could be something there.
As I said, I am not a fan of men right now. I just wish Prince Charming would come and take me away.
To end on a good note, I am having a blast at my internship! I am learning so much and can't believe that its almost mid-semester. I also have the best friends ever. I am getting really close to some of the girls such as Destinee, Carrie, Katie, Brittany, and Stacey. There have been some good times over at Josh's lately and I couldn't ask for a better support system :-)
I am not a fan of men right now, so I couldn't care less that I don't have a Valentine again this year. I am so tired of getting hurt. Just when I start to feel comfortable I get really hurt and it sucks. I have built major walls around myself, especially anything having to do with relationships. Been hurt waaay too many times and tired of it. So recently I found someone of interest that totally blew up in my face. We were spending a lot of time together, but neither of us really wanted a relationship and we both agreed on this. Well then a curve ball was thrown into this. The L word was thrown into this and not by me either. That put things on a total different playing field. I was so confused. Then a couple weeks later he told me that he really cared for me and wanted to be with me, but couldn't be with me. What kind of crap is that? I still get angry thinking about that night. I wanted to punch him in the face right then and there, but I didnt. If he didnt want to be with me, thats fine, but only a few weeks prior he used the freaking L word. Not cool in my book, at all. Who freaking does that?
I still think about him all the time and it sucks. I can honestly say I really miss him and it sucks.
Then theres someone on the total opposite end of the spectrum. This friend of mine really likes me. Hasn't told me but actions speak louder than words. He is a great guy, but I do not see him more than a friend and never will. He is fun to hang out with, but he has a lot of growing up to do. He is older than me, but is not mature at all. He keeps asking me to go out to eat and the movies and stuff and I've tried to drop hints that Im not interested on any level but friendship, but its not working. I am going to have to be blunt soon, because I don't want him to think there could be something there.
As I said, I am not a fan of men right now. I just wish Prince Charming would come and take me away.
To end on a good note, I am having a blast at my internship! I am learning so much and can't believe that its almost mid-semester. I also have the best friends ever. I am getting really close to some of the girls such as Destinee, Carrie, Katie, Brittany, and Stacey. There have been some good times over at Josh's lately and I couldn't ask for a better support system :-)